I feel like goin back to my working life. It's kinda hard to tune in back to study life. I'm sure those who are working will ask me to eat shit when I have to chance back to fully study. But I jus desire for doing something that I wanted to. Yet, I used to work hard to get back myself back to study life. I did alot of adjustment. Now I finally get myself back to study. Is FULLY study. But I miss my freedom life when i'm working. I do watever I wanted. Eventhough that time is kinda stress, but all is I myself responsible with that 1. Those pressure I can consult myself, cuz that time is myself choose to be what I wanted to be.
Yes. I dun deny, study back is also one of the reason I work hard. I promise some1 whenever is time to study back i'll be back. So now im back to study. But lately, the time is so tight. Tight till I dun have the chance to do what I want, what I desire b4 this. and the pressure I dun wan to stand anymore. I dun willing to take the stress, so refuse to have the stress.
Last time, all the pressure I dun take it as pressure, but as a motivation, cuz i've a mind set, tell myself, I choose to be this way. So when I work, I work happily. No matter how, Im happy. Even get scolded, get reject ideas n etc etc. Now study, that little pressure is so damn annoying. Refuse it so much so much.
I know I cant give up what I'm doing now(study). But I cant totally give up my work. What m I suppose to do? Very tired. I control myself not to think him also. But could he jus stop look for me. He interrupting my concentration. I used to rely on him alot. 2 years I rely on him so much, from colleague to friends, good friends, close friends, soul partner, then get along. Now suddenly ask me put down eveything, back to good friends. It's not hard, but need time. During this period, I so damn hope he dun look for me dun call me dun text me. Is very interrupting, Really. I'm trying to focus on what i'm doin. Everytime he suddenly pop up I really scare I get melted. becuz of this 2 years I quite rely on him, my leisure time almost with him, now losing to have such a soul mate, i'm so accustomed. 2 years habits suddenly have to take off. Teach me how to do it?
Yes. I dun deny, study back is also one of the reason I work hard. I promise some1 whenever is time to study back i'll be back. So now im back to study. But lately, the time is so tight. Tight till I dun have the chance to do what I want, what I desire b4 this. and the pressure I dun wan to stand anymore. I dun willing to take the stress, so refuse to have the stress.
Last time, all the pressure I dun take it as pressure, but as a motivation, cuz i've a mind set, tell myself, I choose to be this way. So when I work, I work happily. No matter how, Im happy. Even get scolded, get reject ideas n etc etc. Now study, that little pressure is so damn annoying. Refuse it so much so much.
I know I cant give up what I'm doing now(study). But I cant totally give up my work. What m I suppose to do? Very tired. I control myself not to think him also. But could he jus stop look for me. He interrupting my concentration. I used to rely on him alot. 2 years I rely on him so much, from colleague to friends, good friends, close friends, soul partner, then get along. Now suddenly ask me put down eveything, back to good friends. It's not hard, but need time. During this period, I so damn hope he dun look for me dun call me dun text me. Is very interrupting, Really. I'm trying to focus on what i'm doin. Everytime he suddenly pop up I really scare I get melted. becuz of this 2 years I quite rely on him, my leisure time almost with him, now losing to have such a soul mate, i'm so accustomed. 2 years habits suddenly have to take off. Teach me how to do it?
