KimchiHaru, Poppy

Well it's been quite some time i nver hang up with my foundation buddies. Eventhough this is not all of it but a part at KimchiHaru, jaya 1. But still i miss the moment with them. Lately i got the chance to help them up in their shooting assignment, well ystd nite was the last scene for the whole production. It quite tiring for the whole production. But still i enjoy every moment with eventhough during the whole progress is kindda frus, anyway, it nice when everything done.

Well this is not how i end my day, by shooting n makan. After makan, receive melissa phone call. WOW~~ as u guys know lately i really dun wanted to think so much, know so much, hear so much n bother so much. This brings me to unwanted to stay at home is some kind of feeling too. receive melissa's call of course is go hang up d. At 1st, tot of goin to lot 10, the roof. but becuz of there are few children are not allowed to in. that's y we have to change our location to poppy. hahaha. well, poppy i've been quite several times. but yet this time was the most craziest n funny night. cuz usually i've to jaga my baby when i got in there with them. or hang up with friends with drinking n playing around with them. Ystd nite went with some younger guys n of course there are some old age guy too. hahaha. well the 1st time of being take care from them, even the younger one, they are funny man. They know i being molested, keep on protecting me. lol. you can could never imagine how they dance to kick away those "flies". sure laugh like hell man. I ended my night with a big mouth laugh. It's cool. i'll b back with u guys again. ;)

Nite Time At Muse

I end today with melissa. After dinner, me n her went to Jaya 1 minum. So funny, suppose today dun have to drop by there due to my classes n shit. But end up, I minum kat sana. haha. no matter how, i pulak have to go there. haha.


Jaya 1, Muse. With my bloody marry. ><><Guess who I met, Alice. Such suprising met her there.

Lim Teh With Joseph

LOL~ C who's there for me 2day.

Suppose today I've an appointment to meet up 8am at puchong. Is 8am duh~~~ But end up appointment cancel tiba tiba. So from 8+ I call call call call text text text c who's free to have breakfast n fill my empty time. Call those who are not working, holy shit. If bukan cannot reach then is not picking up. Then text those who working, end up no 1 can curi tulang come out. sienz... Skrg look for them they cant curi tulang, biasa I tak de expect they can curi tulang then they curi tulang keep on ask me mahjong, lepak n etc. Duh~~ Sienz. End up, dear joseph call back. HAHAHAHA!!! Gao Sing Come La~~ hahaha!! From puchong, drove to mid valley, seksyen 17, bandar utama, damansara, then dear joseph finally return call then I back to sunway, bukit jalil n all the way to kl. Is act I wanted to makan at pess school, then who knows v both forgotten is school holiday, Pess canteen mana ade buka? hahaha. Due to this, so v change it to where v lepak while v in high school. haha Yong Guang! tak perasan tak perasan, v chat for 3 hours d. If not I need to back home, I think I'll lepak till late nite cari kawan kat kl kat cheras lim teh lim teh. hehe~Back home early not becuz got things to do at home, is becuz the princess Melissa ask me lim teh. and I've promise her to lim teh with her. so back home n wait for her lo. Reach home drop of for half an hour, went to the nearest complex for gossip gossip her own stuff to me. haha!! This is how I pass my day with ponteng ing my classs. Lol!! Gosh~ In the meanwhile, I kena police block, what to do? Give minum lo. Sienz!! :)

Hard Time 。 Thanks

From the day of stepping into 2010, I know there are lot of stuff for me to face. Well, seems cant run away from all this. This few weeks really a hard time for me. The worst is, I knew I need to do alot of stuff, but my heart, my passion, my motion, my goal, all aren't with me. What I know is drink drank drunk only. Every night, I need to swollow alot of liquor then only I got to sleep for avoiding some unnecessary thinking. I just dont know how to control myself being not to think of crap. This is the only way to anesthetize myself.

Thanks melissa be there when I lose something. Thanks baobei borrowing your ears. Thanks my cousin bro, he's awsome. He brought me to G6. 1st time he being so nice by not teasing me at all. Thanks my 2 baby michelle n jaz spend so much time on me, accompany, entertain me, she really look for something that I usually love to do which can make me happy. Well, too bad in the end she doesn't succeed. Well I appreciate what she did, at least she could comfort me till to have a nice sleep. Well, thank for nick being there for me for this 2 saturday.I had a nice time with him, eventhough 3 of us are colleague, but what he did to me forever cant compare with... Well jus to thanks my friends who help me alot. Thanks.

Well!! I think Im back in the track now. After all, release alot alot. N now feel much better than usual. I've let it go man! Thanks to all my buddy.

stop torturing

I've been use for a year to put down everything. A year, isn't short time or a long time to u? After a year, i've recovered. Fully recovered. Dont think of anything regard xxx. N now another incident happen, same shit. Is jus diff ppl take over. the main character has been change. wtf. what is this all about? Revenge? or what? When i got to start my life without xxx shadow. n pops up with another thing to rule my life. How hard my life get back into what i was, n suddenly change me to what i'm not, when i got used to it, it says the game shud be end. N have to change me back to the previous. U think i can transform whatever i want isn't? duh~ Headache man!! Plz dun rule me again. Im sick of it. I jus want myself back without xxx shadow. k?

Working Vs Study

I feel like goin back to my working life. It's kinda hard to tune in back to study life. I'm sure those who are working will ask me to eat shit when I have to chance back to fully study. But I jus desire for doing something that I wanted to. Yet, I used to work hard to get back myself back to study life. I did alot of adjustment. Now I finally get myself back to study. Is FULLY study. But I miss my freedom life when i'm working. I do watever I wanted. Eventhough that time is kinda stress, but all is I myself responsible with that 1. Those pressure I can consult myself, cuz that time is myself choose to be what I wanted to be.

Yes. I dun deny, study back is also one of the reason I work hard. I promise some1 whenever is time to study back i'll be back. So now im back to study. But lately, the time is so tight. Tight till I dun have the chance to do what I want, what I desire b4 this. and the pressure I dun wan to stand anymore. I dun willing to take the stress, so refuse to have the stress.

Last time, all the pressure I dun take it as pressure, but as a motivation, cuz i've a mind set, tell myself, I choose to be this way. So when I work, I work happily. No matter how, Im happy. Even get scolded, get reject ideas n etc etc. Now study, that little pressure is so damn annoying. Refuse it so much so much.

I know I cant give up what I'm doing now(study). But I cant totally give up my work. What m I suppose to do? Very tired. I control myself not to think him also. But could he jus stop look for me. He interrupting my concentration. I used to rely on him alot. 2 years I rely on him so much, from colleague to friends, good friends, close friends, soul partner, then get along. Now suddenly ask me put down eveything, back to good friends. It's not hard, but need time. During this period, I so damn hope he dun look for me dun call me dun text me. Is very interrupting, Really. I'm trying to focus on what i'm doin. Everytime he suddenly pop up I really scare I get melted. becuz of this 2 years I quite rely on him, my leisure time almost with him, now losing to have such a soul mate, i'm so accustomed. 2 years habits suddenly have to take off. Teach me how to do it?

That's the end of us 3rd of march 2010

Well finally ystd end up our relationship. It's miserable but still I need to go on with my life. So I decide to stand up. I duno whether it shud be glad or not, but still struggle for some time d. It shud be end like this. How it start, n how it end. Wish me luck. :)