20th Birthday

Now it's already 31st January 2009 2:57 in the morning
Today it's my 20th b'day and i choose to stay alone
Not goin out with frens or family
Not celebrating with frens or family

1st Thing wanna tell in this blog is to say sorry..
Sorry to my lovely frens...
Sorry Sherly for FFK....
Sorry Shawne for saying NO...
Sorry Mel for saying im busy...
Sorry Chris for saying im not free...
Sorry Jay for saying i just feel tired...
I know you guys got heart is enuff d...
I know you guys are sweet... plan to celebrate my b'day
I know you guys know how i feel for this year b'day...
I know you guys afraid that i feel lonely n trying to persuade me out...
I know you guys wanna keep me busy rather think of some unecessary things~
Guys~! You are wonderful, sweet n cheerful...
Thank you for each gang of you all being so sweet to me...
I dont wanna let you guys feel disappointed, so that's why i dont wanna show up at this moment...
n also why i keep myself at genting, dont willing to stay at KL
I also know if you guys wanted to look for me is actually very easy,
but the thing is i trust you guys wont break my privacy

Someone did ask me why m i ignoring all the invitation
and come to genting alone
Someone knows the true reason, someone dont...
I dont really willing to explain much... Just let it be... what i can tell is
you guys can say i'm trying to runaway,
im trying to avoiding from the truth
that's why im here at this location far from the so call 'hal hal susah disolve'
I been thru alot of things eversince the end of November in 2008...
At 1st I tot I'm enjoying my life like no one else did...
But once come to this end of November,
everything seems out of control...
It's doesn't goes with the actual plan...
Everything comes in a sudden...
No matter in which anger what sector which respect also not right...
I really gonna breakdown one day or the next second if all all these not gonna settle...
Sometimes really think except me myself can save kusendiri
Siape lagi boleh help me? Answer is: 'I've to makan sendiri"

Piece of shit on

Duno wat piece of shit on me lately~~ REALLY SICK wif it lar...All coming so tak lancar...

eh... JANGAN lar...susah tau??? i punya studies, i punya job, i punya X***, i punya financial...

semua lar... semua pun macam goyang goyang aje~~ im so sick wif it... especially my financial~of course my financial relate to my work.. then oso relate to my studies...MY GOSH... can some1 come n help me to halau tat sui dewa ar? being dump by that idiot X*** pun tak ape d...now all the things i care satu per satu come n fan me... oh PLZ~~~ go away~~ i dun wan u all come lar... u come after i settle 1 1st lar...come together i beh tahan.... i fight it all alone ok? eh~ war oso got team one lar... but now i fight all by myself...give me a break ok onot? all this affect i punya jalan in the future... let me handle one by one not that bunch of trouble come together at THE SAME TIME...i choose that way cuz i got confidence...i noe wat m i doin... u all are forcing me to the way that i dun have the confidence walking thru... My godness~~~ who can save me n guaranty me~~~~???? WHO?? WHO?? WHO??

Medan N Lake Toba

Subang Airport~
Neva been here since mummy neva work here...
wow~ ady quite some time d... neva realize tim~ U may c, it's really kosong~

Nth to buy, nth to c oso...
sienzzz

This is the refreshment frm the air flight
FIRE FLY~
haha this is the 1st time i travel by FireFly...
it's a small areplane...
quite ok... to me still ok lar...
eventhough MAS will better than this..
but this oso got it's own excitement...
but if u say travel far far
then that's really a suffering~
hehe... i still enjoy it...
cuz i can feel the pilot drove veli fast whn on the way coming back frm Medan

2nd sis n me b4 step into the airplane
C the sign board?
Toilet= Kamar Kecil in Medan

After finish all the 'rulez' in Medan
filling all the 'form' finally we can procced to the destination
mafan~~

From Medan to Lake Toba
it's really took us 6 hours~~
i was sleep n wake sleep n wake~
alamak~

whn we reach the location
guess wat time is it?
oredi 9 something in indonesia

so... we took our dinner at 9 something
to me is ok lar... cuz i eat tak eat pun boleh~~
and u know, this tour got elders de ma...
sure beh tahan lar... especially my mum i think,
cuz she owis blah alot whn she took her dinner that late~

After dinner, we check in and bath...
b4 bath of course do wat i usually will do de lar...
it's.....
VISITING THE HOTEL~~~
hahaha

after wallking one round then back to room n bath
then..... of course zzzzzzzzzzzzz ape lagi???
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The next morning
early in the morning
my niece knock my door n buat bising~
luckly im a pig
she come n bising bising i still can fall back to my sweet dreams
but oso sleep back for awhile,
then wash up n mum mum lu~

Of course today v still goin to visit some place lar...

travel for around 40 minutes
dudududududududududududu

saw this hse, pretty nice frm here...
said by our tour guide
duno siape punya hse,
i forget d...
he did told me...
haha
so... after 40 minutes
we reach here~!
it's a village
then travel travel lagi
dut dur dut dut dut dut
reach another village
but onli some so call
SHOPPING~
but nth to shop...
due to my sis n parents malas to walk
so i jalan alone....
really nth much lar...
but rather sit at the 'caffe shop' n drink onli~

then we dut dut dut dut dut again...
travel for half a day...
finally reach back to the hotel, The Hotel Niagara, 5 Star hotel over... XD
p/s: 'Half a day at the hotel sure nth to do... '
some1 musta think of that~~
Actually you can choose to sleep
walking around taking photos
massage or swimming~
but me decided to relax in the other way
rather than sleep like my sis n mum
i went to this swimming pool cafe sit down
enjoy the cool weather wif a cup of cappucino
A cup of cappucino and my favourite book
but neva have to chance to complete it...
its call 'six makes coffee shop'
wuhu~
siting at the pool side coffee shop
drinking my cappucino
reading my book 'coffee shop'
so COOL~~
p/s: so cool~actually in the sense of weather is really cooling
another 1is cuz of i really enjoying drinking coffee n reading the books i luv

It's really enjoying my time at that moment,
the story i read page by page....
half way i did stop for awhile
cuz the story makes me remind him~
His idiot face flash back in my mind~
Celaka~
Anyway, his face did flash back most of the timein this trip,
cuz this place we did plan to come,
but end up... fuck up~

Then around 5 something to 6...
mum n sis found me at there..
we walk around n enjoy the weather...
Honestly, i really luv the weather there, im having wonderful rite there
N yet the dinner is serve, after having the malay style dinner
Rest for 3 hours, MASSAGE.. full body massage... im lovin it~~ Yeah~!
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The 3rd Day
After having breakfast
check out frm Lake Toba
then proceed to the highest point of Toba Lake
To c this

Selepas listening to the 'history' of it...
then we dut dut dut dut to this...
This is Sipiso-piso waterfalls in Karo Highlands
wuhu~~
hang around 20 to 30 minutes lar
then we dut dut dut to this
Fruits Market
tour guide brought us to the Market~Big Big sweet potatos~~
kekekeke...

after this we moving to Medan
nth much there...
Medan is a city!
wat else in city?
A CITY loR!

To me
it's quite boring there
except eat...
masih lagi eat
2 of my sis really having fun wif trying others country food&cuisine
especially my 2nd sis and i realize they come back frm bangkok
they really looking forward to this countries culture food

By the way,
food & cuisine oso my favourite part whn traveling
but duno y...tak de mood nak try food lately
mayb tummy cannot be fill anymore...
or the ppl i travel wif...din bring up the excitement of eating local food

Medan here conclusion: A CITY LOR

The Tour Guide, Joey explaining the story of the Istana...
My Lovely Family Members
(Is only part of them... some couldn't make it to this trip)

Conclusion of this trip:
Fun: ***
Excitement:**
Enjoy:**
Relax:**
(p/s:it's not relax at all, cuz the bus travel makes me !#$%*^$##...the most enjoy part i think it's my reading time at the pool side wif my cup of cappucino)

might be coming back
BUT have to c wif who~
more adventures ppl?
same interest?
haha...
c how it goes~~~
tata~~

plz STOP

Those mou liu ppl can stop sms me ar...
Stop asking wat m i doin...
Stop asking whether i got pak tor...
Stop asking where m i....
Stop asking me isn't at school...
Stop asking me go where later...
Stop asking me i want to go where...
Stop asking who m i with....

IM SICK WIF ITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

Trust me。I Know

YES !!!

i noe wat im doin...

i definately noe wat im doin...

stop tourching me like the way

u owis do...

i sick with it...

i tot u r the 1 who know me well...

but now i definately misunderstood something

i dun willing wanna make it like that....

but wat to do? It's oredi a past tense...

i couldn't turn back the time n change

the reality that u n i facing...

i noe u have step backward...

i noe u have sacrifice something to let me move on...

wat u have given out.... i noe... ALL i noe...

But can u PLZ TRUST ME....

i noe wat m i doin...

i dun wan to be like that...

i cant change anything...

THE THING i can onli do in look forward

n stand back where i can fix back the situation

99朵花

第一次收到这么一大束的玫瑰花

还这么多支扎在一起

我的妈啊~~

希望这些花他没有什么意思

清楚

我想信我可以

我知道我可以

我不会有事的

我不会乱来的

我是很清醒的

我是很理智的

我知道我是

我清楚我自己

My Saturday

wonderful day?? Erm....think so~~ suppose today i have to go watch concert wif my frens nearby the Amcorp Mall... but then JUST becuz of SARA ajak me pc fair (she has a booth over there), plus i think i wanna go there n beli things oso... think think think...erm.... OK i said... say ok d what m i gonna do? FFK my fren say im not goin for concert lo... hahaha... me so bad.. cuz very malas go n sempit wif others...i know watch concert very shok... but then i lagi dun like sempit wif others N the main point is i tak da mood nak sempit wif others... no motivation lat me go indeed b sandwich wif a big fat pork... (fat pork = me) hahaha XD... after 2 hours sara n i jalan kat fair...she say veli hungry then i oso lazy to walk... v both actually tok more than c wat v wanna buy...hahaha... in that case, she say wanna go makan at times square the Bar B Q Restaurant (something like that) hahaha...dun remember...kekeke...
C v got leng leng SARA in the house~~~~ ^o^V oso the nice nice...(tak tau call wat even in chinese.... watever~as long as the food taste ok~~)kakaka... Frm the nice nice n clean clean untill empty but dirty~~~Muhahahhaa... ( m i too gilababi) ops~ soli!!
after makan wif sara then i meet up wif GERARD AGAIN~~(p/s:a bit sien... but ssshhhhh...hahahahha...Gerard!! jokin jokin..dun angry huh~)

He brought me to his Ex girlfriend's b'day gathering at PAVILLION, Mdm Kwan... in that bunch of frens~ not many ppl i noe... i just recognize one of his fren's gal fren which call POON PEK YUN...haha...(p/s: she's my secondary's schoolmate)....she become pretty d...n....feminine???~~~kakakakaa...next time i show her photo)

I shud say actually I'm not veli tired even whn i back home ady around 2 n i get up at 7am, leave my hse at 9... But i dun feel sleepy at all.

Btw.... even gerard owis accompany me whenever he has the free time, (really very appreciate it...) but the things is... my mind still thinking about the other one.... watever i do, wherever i go, it seems everthing will related to him...picture of him neva gone out of my mind~~hahahaa....ANYWAY~~~~ i did have a wonderful day today~ cuz keeps me busy n having fun wif gerard's frens 'joke'...hahaha

Mac

Duno what happen to my hse wireless...CANNOT ON9!!!~~ menyusah me have to go out n on9~Ape lar??!! Then drive ar drive still duno where to go...saw MACDONALD, oh gosh bless... haha..then wat again lar... of course pick Macd d lar...still wan go far far meh? From the afternoon lepak till night (c wat time i post my blog) oso here... i think macd punya org musta feel very weird..haha... (macd staff 1: this feller hse cant on9 one meh? sit there take lunch then sit untill dinner oso can eat together... if shewan take supper oso can d lor....macd staff 2: what to do? duno she too rich or too poor or too boring at home? aiya~ forget bout her lar.. she dun kacau us can d lar...) Doink~~=_='''aiya watever lar... i'm consumer mar... WHO CARES???!!hahaha.... from tak da ppl till full of ppl de macd....
Then end up guess who msn ME?? C this feller~he's the GERARD lar... hahahha... young guy... some1 says he leng chai( i dun feel like).... except for YOUNG this word i cant find others d... nth much can describe him...hahaha..(p/s: gerard, soli~) then he lepak wif me till 9 something then leave d... i think he got 2nd round guo~aiya... dun care much lar.. he owis find me mengisikan his free time... (p/s: cuz me oso like that, same same lar... v both sama aje...kekeke)
that all lor... macd DAY for me~~~ ^0^

我变了

我变了．．．

我知道我变了

我变得不理智

我变得不潇洒

我变得不聪明

我变得不主动

我变得不乐观

我的确变了

我一整个人都变了

从心灵到外在我都变了

我不否认这一切

我变了～～

聪明。笨蛋

有些事我该去明白还是假装不懂

我要装聪明还是装白痴什么都不懂

天才与白痴真的一线之差

难难难！！！

你跟我说的

其实是在暗示些事

还是我想太多？？

不懂~

我是不懂啦...

可以明白点吗？？

我是笨蛋来的~

XD

My Haji Day

WOW~~Since today is HAJI~mum oso tak kerja... EARLY in the morining mum go n knock my door n ask me to wake up... wat o?? holiday oso cannot sleep late abit meh?? She says so long din go makan Dim Sum 2gether wor~ is not i dun wan wake up lar.. is juz 2day whole day oso raining day~ lazy to wake up at that moment jeh~ cuz i dreamt bout that 'lanjiao' ...haha...that y not really willing to wake up n putus that story in my dream... anyway...since mummy says wanna go makan Dim Sum lo... then ok lo... then 4 of us (dad,mum,2nd sis n me...eldest sis not here cuz went to Seremban for her BEST friend punya Wedding) go makan at Sri Petaling lo... 4 of cuz makan tak byk but oredi cost RM 50 something (p/s: price okok la...dim sum oso cost like this, but the point is... actually dim sum there i dun feel like nice lo... but still can makan la...next time try another stall..haha..i think will be much better than this... cuz Sri Petaling Dim Sum actually quite famous.. but duno y this 1 i rasa okok aje~~haha)

Then in the afternoon...sudah balik rumah~my mummy dunno sot jor or wat? suddenly ask me wan go shopping onot...haha...she pun ask me dy lo... i only can say ok lo....swt~ then after i prepare myself she also decide where she wanted to go... Guess where she wanna go? GARDENS??!! My gosh~ she says wor...eversince Gardens sudah buka lama dia pun belum masuk wor... haihh~ ok lo then... Gardens mai Gardens lo... so i drove her to gardens...AND wat the F***...haihh~ u know 1 lar... there owis jam 1... jgn cakap PUBLIC HOLIDAY lagi~~=_=''''' JAM JAM JAM~~~haih~ so tulan lar... (p/s:i mean not tulan my mum... is tulan the traffic) I so hate the traffic jam... i believe no 1 suka jam de la... so i talk bull shit here... hahaha..paiseh~

Mum jalan for 3 to 4 hours oso tak dapat 1 piece of baju~~ kesian~~haha... i accompany mum come here n jalan jalan really reflash alot of MY memory~especially i saw Christmas decoration along the walk way...jalan jalan i saw the bear bear three n also these anak patung...lagi susah hati...haihh... i told mum about me n the 'lan jiao'..she din give much expression...juz give me a smile...hahaha...funny mum~~

Then around 7 something my stomach started to call me to feed her~haha.. then mum decided back to Mid valley eat n oso shop kat sana...walk around the whole LG floor...pun tak tau nak makan mana, all also byk org...queue sibeh long~~=_=''''around 20 to 30 minutes ago...mum decided go makan a restaurant just in front of us... YOSHIDA (something like that) haha dun really remember...paiseh paiseh~~^_^'' so after some discussion... mum oso go n order lo.. cuz here macam fast food like that self service one~i order value meal set..>beef n salmon then i can choose whether i wan a bowl of soup or a glass of soft drink... but then up i pick soup la..cuz dun wan soft drink...haha>.<...all this cost ngam ngam RM 25..

food there... kira can eat la... but if i got choice i wont pick there de lo.. haha.. duno y? feel lo...haha

End of the day... shop oso nak tutup d...n oso shop for so many hours~~ mum oso din get anything~~ doink =-=''..

haha..but i bought a trend coat and oso sepasang kasut~~wuhu~~

hehehe...(happy) but the point is have to go work again n earn $$$... BROKE d la... nearly eviday oso shopping~~ my purse so de cedera~~haha...

Shopholic at KLCC

Wat a wonderful shopping day wif both of my BEST friends
there've been quite some time we never meet up
1st becuz Jaz need to sit for her STPM
2nd becuz Pulin buzy wif her work n study oso
3rd becuz i buzy wif my study,the 'lan jiao' and oso my 'work'
p/s: sorry being rude~

Anyway... All these reasonSSSsss doesnt break our good connection
we are still so THE close after some time we never meet each other
I so miss them...
There are many things to tell them about how was i b4 this

But end up...i din tell much stuff to them oso
cuz we were too buzy wif our shopping
haha... Zha Dou~~

Of course we did hang up for lunch la
Pulin brought us to a Restaurant at Avenue K
where makan Taiwan Food
p/s i forget wat the restaurant's name d...haha..paiseh~
=_=''

We bertiga-tiga oso call set lunch~
cuz food there look like not very the.....(u know la)
but can tell 1 thing is... there very quiet...
service not bad oso....
Set Lunch (included a glass of tea)

Jazly----SUPER spicy ramen
(Very spicy for me... duno la... Jaz say not spicy at all)


Pulin----Crispy chicken chop noodles
(chicken chop quite salty, pulin end up oso tak boleh habis)


Mine---very ordinary punya beef noodles
(there is a big bowl of beef noodles, alot of beef... nyaris wanna throw dy)

p/s: if 3 plate of dishes need to do comparison
i feel like mine is the best~~nice to eat the ordianry stuff~~haha...sshhh

~~J and P in da house~~

p/s:actually there is alot of gila funny and ugly photos...becuz of that too menjejaskan imej so tak upload...they say i din make ugly face wor~~i wanna EXPLAIN here...is not i dun wan make ugly face
im the 1 holding camera...
very hard leh... at the same time oso have to adjust the camera
yun wong arrrrr... dai yan

谢谢你们

谢谢Shir

谢谢Shone

我在你家乡的事时候

都是你们陪着我的

谢谢Chris

我难过的时候

都是你听我诉苦

谢谢Gerard

当我需要你put put的时候

你二话不说

来帮我

谢谢Denise

这几天都是你陪着我

谢谢melissa

当我需要爱的时候

你在那安慰我

谢谢你们~~

甘谢啊~~

p/s:其实还有很多很多的你们在那段时间都陪着我
总之就谢谢你们啦~~XD

The day you went away

From the moment u drop me...
My tears automatically falls...
I neva tot that i will tears...
When u left me behind...
I started cry...
Neva tot becuz of u
l will lost my mind ...
Juz becuz you want this way...
I need to step up n follow...
options to choose... ?
chance to explain... ?
time to prove......... ?
Not at all....

God let us met,
but he took away our fate~
God let us love,
but took away our happiness~
God let us met,
but he took away our faith~
God let us love,
but he took away our passion~

Wat God left here is a piece of
LONESOME WORLD
for u n me~