Lately alot of stuff happen. Jus duno how to put in words. I pass my bday with my fellow friends. That shud be a happy thing to me, jus there is some1 broke my bday up. Anyhow is not a big deal actually.. The worst is actually I very frustrated with my everything, no matter work, studies, people around me, n bla bla bla...
I'm not sure whether people around me realize that or not, but I myself realize that I've change alot since I get into a new environment of being one of them. But results telling me is, Im being a fool, being sarcastic, being unfriendly...
I have my own style of getting friendly to environment, but not the way they used to be. Yes, might be I'm new to this environment, i've tried my best to explain who, what, how, am I. but seems they don't choose to believe what I saw, I met, I know, I observe.
Friends told me, If ones understand, ones should know your effort on how much did you sacrifice to... I used to care about people's thought, feeling n etc. But someone taught me, I need to be selfish. Well I dunno whether being selfish is good or not. But someone taught me, at least you won't hurt yourself.
Lately I'm not who I use to be, someone taken me away where I dun wana go. Now I know everthing has been change, and never back to who I used to be. Now I know what I exactly have to do, in order to be there for you, whenever needed someone. I wanted to be the one I used to be, but the facts telling me everything that I jus being naive.
I've learned 1 thing from here, I learn to be mute, to be deft, to be blind. think that will easy my life dude.
