20th Birthday

Now it's already 31st January 2009 2:57 in the morning
Today it's my 20th b'day and i choose to stay alone
Not goin out with frens or family
Not celebrating with frens or family

1st Thing wanna tell in this blog is to say sorry..
Sorry to my lovely frens...
Sorry Sherly for FFK....
Sorry Shawne for saying NO...
Sorry Mel for saying im busy...
Sorry Chris for saying im not free...
Sorry Jay for saying i just feel tired...
I know you guys got heart is enuff d...
I know you guys are sweet... plan to celebrate my b'day
I know you guys know how i feel for this year b'day...
I know you guys afraid that i feel lonely n trying to persuade me out...
I know you guys wanna keep me busy rather think of some unecessary things~
Guys~! You are wonderful, sweet n cheerful...
Thank you for each gang of you all being so sweet to me...
I dont wanna let you guys feel disappointed, so that's why i dont wanna show up at this moment...
n also why i keep myself at genting, dont willing to stay at KL
I also know if you guys wanted to look for me is actually very easy,
but the thing is i trust you guys wont break my privacy

Someone did ask me why m i ignoring all the invitation
and come to genting alone
Someone knows the true reason, someone dont...
I dont really willing to explain much... Just let it be... what i can tell is
you guys can say i'm trying to runaway,
im trying to avoiding from the truth
that's why im here at this location far from the so call 'hal hal susah disolve'
I been thru alot of things eversince the end of November in 2008...
At 1st I tot I'm enjoying my life like no one else did...
But once come to this end of November,
everything seems out of control...
It's doesn't goes with the actual plan...
Everything comes in a sudden...
No matter in which anger what sector which respect also not right...
I really gonna breakdown one day or the next second if all all these not gonna settle...
Sometimes really think except me myself can save kusendiri
Siape lagi boleh help me? Answer is: 'I've to makan sendiri"

Piece of shit on

Duno wat piece of shit on me lately~~ REALLY SICK wif it lar...All coming so tak lancar...

eh... JANGAN lar...susah tau??? i punya studies, i punya job, i punya X***, i punya financial...

semua lar... semua pun macam goyang goyang aje~~ im so sick wif it... especially my financial~of course my financial relate to my work.. then oso relate to my studies...MY GOSH... can some1 come n help me to halau tat sui dewa ar? being dump by that idiot X*** pun tak ape d...now all the things i care satu per satu come n fan me... oh PLZ~~~ go away~~ i dun wan u all come lar... u come after i settle 1 1st lar...come together i beh tahan.... i fight it all alone ok? eh~ war oso got team one lar... but now i fight all by myself...give me a break ok onot? all this affect i punya jalan in the future... let me handle one by one not that bunch of trouble come together at THE SAME TIME...i choose that way cuz i got confidence...i noe wat m i doin... u all are forcing me to the way that i dun have the confidence walking thru... My godness~~~ who can save me n guaranty me~~~~???? WHO?? WHO?? WHO??

Medan N Lake Toba

Subang Airport~
Neva been here since mummy neva work here...
wow~ ady quite some time d... neva realize tim~ U may c, it's really kosong~

Nth to buy, nth to c oso...
sienzzz

This is the refreshment frm the air flight
FIRE FLY~
haha this is the 1st time i travel by FireFly...
it's a small areplane...
quite ok... to me still ok lar...
eventhough MAS will better than this..
but this oso got it's own excitement...
but if u say travel far far
then that's really a suffering~
hehe... i still enjoy it...
cuz i can feel the pilot drove veli fast whn on the way coming back frm Medan

2nd sis n me b4 step into the airplane
C the sign board?
Toilet= Kamar Kecil in Medan

After finish all the 'rulez' in Medan
filling all the 'form' finally we can procced to the destination
mafan~~

From Medan to Lake Toba
it's really took us 6 hours~~
i was sleep n wake sleep n wake~
alamak~

whn we reach the location
guess wat time is it?
oredi 9 something in indonesia

so... we took our dinner at 9 something
to me is ok lar... cuz i eat tak eat pun boleh~~
and u know, this tour got elders de ma...
sure beh tahan lar... especially my mum i think,
cuz she owis blah alot whn she took her dinner that late~

After dinner, we check in and bath...
b4 bath of course do wat i usually will do de lar...
it's.....
VISITING THE HOTEL~~~
hahaha

after wallking one round then back to room n bath
then..... of course zzzzzzzzzzzzz ape lagi???
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The next morning
early in the morning
my niece knock my door n buat bising~
luckly im a pig
she come n bising bising i still can fall back to my sweet dreams
but oso sleep back for awhile,
then wash up n mum mum lu~

Of course today v still goin to visit some place lar...

travel for around 40 minutes
dudududududududududududu

saw this hse, pretty nice frm here...
said by our tour guide
duno siape punya hse,
i forget d...
he did told me...
haha
so... after 40 minutes
we reach here~!
it's a village
then travel travel lagi
dut dur dut dut dut dut
reach another village
but onli some so call
SHOPPING~
but nth to shop...
due to my sis n parents malas to walk
so i jalan alone....
really nth much lar...
but rather sit at the 'caffe shop' n drink onli~

then we dut dut dut dut dut again...
travel for half a day...
finally reach back to the hotel, The Hotel Niagara, 5 Star hotel over... XD
p/s: 'Half a day at the hotel sure nth to do... '
some1 musta think of that~~
Actually you can choose to sleep
walking around taking photos
massage or swimming~
but me decided to relax in the other way
rather than sleep like my sis n mum
i went to this swimming pool cafe sit down
enjoy the cool weather wif a cup of cappucino
A cup of cappucino and my favourite book
but neva have to chance to complete it...
its call 'six makes coffee shop'
wuhu~
siting at the pool side coffee shop
drinking my cappucino
reading my book 'coffee shop'
so COOL~~
p/s: so cool~actually in the sense of weather is really cooling
another 1is cuz of i really enjoying drinking coffee n reading the books i luv

It's really enjoying my time at that moment,
the story i read page by page....
half way i did stop for awhile
cuz the story makes me remind him~
His idiot face flash back in my mind~
Celaka~
Anyway, his face did flash back most of the timein this trip,
cuz this place we did plan to come,
but end up... fuck up~

Then around 5 something to 6...
mum n sis found me at there..
we walk around n enjoy the weather...
Honestly, i really luv the weather there, im having wonderful rite there
N yet the dinner is serve, after having the malay style dinner
Rest for 3 hours, MASSAGE.. full body massage... im lovin it~~ Yeah~!
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The 3rd Day
After having breakfast
check out frm Lake Toba
then proceed to the highest point of Toba Lake
To c this

Selepas listening to the 'history' of it...
then we dut dut dut dut to this...
This is Sipiso-piso waterfalls in Karo Highlands
wuhu~~
hang around 20 to 30 minutes lar
then we dut dut dut to this
Fruits Market
tour guide brought us to the Market~Big Big sweet potatos~~
kekekeke...

after this we moving to Medan
nth much there...
Medan is a city!
wat else in city?
A CITY loR!

To me
it's quite boring there
except eat...
masih lagi eat
2 of my sis really having fun wif trying others country food&cuisine
especially my 2nd sis and i realize they come back frm bangkok
they really looking forward to this countries culture food

By the way,
food & cuisine oso my favourite part whn traveling
but duno y...tak de mood nak try food lately
mayb tummy cannot be fill anymore...
or the ppl i travel wif...din bring up the excitement of eating local food

Medan here conclusion: A CITY LOR

The Tour Guide, Joey explaining the story of the Istana...
My Lovely Family Members
(Is only part of them... some couldn't make it to this trip)

Conclusion of this trip:
Fun: ***
Excitement:**
Enjoy:**
Relax:**
(p/s:it's not relax at all, cuz the bus travel makes me !#$%*^$##...the most enjoy part i think it's my reading time at the pool side wif my cup of cappucino)

might be coming back
BUT have to c wif who~
more adventures ppl?
same interest?
haha...
c how it goes~~~
tata~~

plz STOP

Those mou liu ppl can stop sms me ar...
Stop asking wat m i doin...
Stop asking whether i got pak tor...
Stop asking where m i....
Stop asking me isn't at school...
Stop asking me go where later...
Stop asking me i want to go where...
Stop asking who m i with....

IM SICK WIF ITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

Trust me。I Know

YES !!!

i noe wat im doin...

i definately noe wat im doin...

stop tourching me like the way

u owis do...

i sick with it...

i tot u r the 1 who know me well...

but now i definately misunderstood something

i dun willing wanna make it like that....

but wat to do? It's oredi a past tense...

i couldn't turn back the time n change

the reality that u n i facing...

i noe u have step backward...

i noe u have sacrifice something to let me move on...

wat u have given out.... i noe... ALL i noe...

But can u PLZ TRUST ME....

i noe wat m i doin...

i dun wan to be like that...

i cant change anything...

THE THING i can onli do in look forward

n stand back where i can fix back the situation

99朵花

第一次收到这么一大束的玫瑰花

还这么多支扎在一起

我的妈啊~~

希望这些花他没有什么意思

清楚

我想信我可以

我知道我可以

我不会有事的

我不会乱来的

我是很清醒的

我是很理智的

我知道我是

我清楚我自己