要的是时间和空间

身体和灵魂都很累了，不知道该怎么办了。 不想争，不想吵，不想烦，不想动，什么都不想，只是想好好的去一次，不必人陪，自己一个人就好了。要求不高，可是对我而言，就是件困难的事。

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就是不喜欢我的故事有他

不知道几时开始故事又再次的推广到另一个版本。难道男与女之间真的不能做好朋友吗？难道朋友之间只要走得比较进就有不寻常得关系吗？怀疑归怀疑，如果今天那个对象不是他，换是一个背景比较白的人我可能就不理，可是这位朋友真的不是我任何一道菜。第一，我知道他是我两位中学巨蟹座朋友的前度男友。有一位更是以前是爽性恋（B），同时他和我一位女生朋友一起。
更何况，我比谁都知道他在追我这位（A）巨蟹座的朋友出的手段是什么。

而且我不欣赏他，不欣赏他做事的态度。不欣赏他又怎能可以不顾一切（身边的闲话）和他在一起呢？不欣赏他在工作间追我的选美选手，在工作期间男工作人员对我比赛里的选手有非份之想是一个禁。他却违规了这个规章。违规了就算，自控下别太朝阳两人的关系就算了，可是既然可以在记者会手牵手，让女方坐在自己的大腿上。难道其他人都死了吗？难道老板都死了吗？难道一直帮他守这个秘密的我死了吗？这种目中无人的小弟怎么可能有任何的智慧。话说回来，我就是不欣赏他的做法。

如果对他有任何的私心，我怎会又有可能不断的把Sa和他抽在一起呢？再来的是那时我已经和我的老板在一起。虽然不是一段很得意又骄傲的事，可是我真的从来没有对他有什么非份之想，我想他或许也是这么想。

不晓得不寻常关系的定义在那儿，每个人的定义都不一样。走的比较近的定义是暧昧吗？那暧昧的定义又在哪儿？没有任何感觉称呼对方dear，darling，baby，这些算暧昧吗？没有爱情的相处算暧昧吗？只不过经常见个面算暧昧吗？那我可不是和我所有Close Friends都有一腿吗？不分男男女女都和我暧昧吗？

之所以为什么当初走得比较进，可能是缘分，朋友间的缘分。那时候的我，学会了麻将，我整天都吵着要打麻将。他也许完成我的心愿，也顺着我的要求找他的兄弟一起打。也有可能因为这样，他常常来载我的关系，所以应起了闲人的闲话，也有可能我们真的走得有点进，所以很多亲密的动作令别人误会。这也算是暧昧吗？

可是不可以因这样，把故事传到我好像把身体都给了他这样啊。故事我听太多了，他的坏事我也听太多了，要是把我和他说在一起我真的很介意。很介意他的过去硬要把我说在里头。我很介意谁和我在一起过，很介意我另一半是谁。很介意另一半在感情线里的清白。

朋友在我生活里是一定要的，所以我不会太挑剔朋友，就算是怎么坏，怎么夸张的朋友，他们都是我朋友。可是一位坏的男朋友，对不起，我不会要，就算有任何的感觉，对不起，对这块我比较理性，我怎么也不会塌出那一步。更何况，他是我某一些女生朋友的前度男友，不是一位女生友，是很多女生友的前度男友，就算是要我孤独一生我都不会有任何非分之想。

也因为怕了闲话，尤其是我，特别是我，特别觉得闲话说我和他就特别的geli。所以我们俩慢慢的疏远了。对不起，就算别人说我是第三者，当老板的情妇，我都无所谓，因为我是。可是要把他扯进来我就觉得不好受。为什么人终是把事情看得这么不一样？就不能单纯一点吗？

Who Win : Who Lose

Well I've been in pageant line for quite some years off n on. In 2008, Miss Tourism Queen Of The Year, was a tough pageant for me. This I meant mentally, I wasn't ready for work, but I've promise to, no choice I got to. Everyday working, my soul wasn't there untill oneday I was crystal clear to know that everything there is a circle.

Miss Tourism International, this year's title. This year was the most tough pageant I ever been. I meant physically, this year pageant most of the things were in the wrong track. It was not smooth at 1st. I dun like this year working environment, I think the main problem is not the collegues but the 1 who lead us, so call lady boss.

Being a leader, got to earn ones respect. sorry, sadly to say she cant n I dare to say she will never learn that. She might be sucessfull in something, but she fail in friendships and lost all the friends. Those are around her so call as friends are bullshit. How could someone lives without friends? And not even close with own family members? Someone who love money more than others can even do better than her.

I like money, I cant reach that yet, in this part... What I can only say SHE WON! But got to tell her, money is nothing when you have no friends around to share the happiness. In another way, that's call loser too.

I run away

End of the year 2010. Miss Tourism International. Never deny that I run away from who IM again. What make that? Well, im gonna work for pageant event, as the same thing, im gonna stay in a hotel for 3weeks. Why would I say so I ran away from myself again.
I actually have a choice to make myself not working for this event. But there is a thing I dun wan to commit myself, that's why I keep myself busy. Working. Yes, I dun wanna commit, so I have choose to leave the prob by fulfilling my time with work again. So that I wun involve for the things happen outside of the hotel.

!@$*$@&**@&!

This year classes are ended on today. Today was the last screening for the 1st drama production. I don take it happily to end this whole year study, but sadly. I feel sad and depress after the screening, not becuz the result for the production, but the progress for this production. I don feel nice after everything done, what I meant is the connection between the crews is zero, is nothing. This is the one thing that I feel so commiserate for. I lose my faith on them. I just duno how to get the faith back, how am I gonna trust them again?

Adam

Directed by	Max Mayer
Produced by	Miranda De Pencier Leslie Urdang Dean Vanech
Written by	Max Mayer
Starring	Hugh Dancy Rose Byrne Peter Gallagher Amy Irving Frankie Faison
Music by
Cinematography	Seamus Tierney
Editing by	Grant Myers

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Adam is a 2009 comedy-drama film written and directed by Max Mayer, starring Hugh Dancy (Adam Raki) and Rose Byrne (Beth Buchwald). The film follows the relationship between a young man named Adam (Dancy) with Asperger syndrome and the woman of his dreams, Beth (Byrne). Mayer was inspired to write the film's script when he heard a radio interview with a man who had Asperger's.
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Recommend you guys to watch this movie. I like the story, it potraying how a asperger person live, and they try hard to be a normal like us just not to be exclusion in this society. Hugh Dancy is well acting of how a asperger is.

Y2S3 2008 The Last Exit

Well a group of University Tunku Abdul Rahman Year 2 Sem 3 in 2008 students sucessfully won six awards under the Anugerah Perdana and eight awards under the Anugerah Cipta on the Award Night (Malam Anugerah) of the festival, which was attended by VIPs and local celebrities. Among them were YB Dato' Seri Mohd Shafie Apdal, Minister of National Unity, Culture, Arts and Heritage, and YB Senator Tan Sri Jins Shamsudin.

"The awards won by the students under the Anugerah Perdana were:

1) Best Short Video
2) Best Supporting Actor
3) Best Editing
4) Best Documentary
5) Best Documentary Director
6) Best Editing

The awards won by the students under the Anugerah Cipta were:

1) Best Production Award
2) Best Music Video Award
3) Best Commercial Award
4) Best Short Video(Fiction) Director Award
5) Best Cinematography Award
6) Best Art Direction Award
7) Best Editing Award
8) Best Sound Effects Award

Actually I was very randomly knew that my seniors had make such a big proud for UTAR. Of course I watched this filem before I posted it up here and I really think it's a great production I ever screen in UTAR's materpiece.

Triumph

From the bottom of our heart, we , the crews don't deny that the shooting, the angle, the quality, the acting are bad. But this is for the sake of finishing up the work on time and done. close file. hahaha. But I've watched it many times, might be we know both of the cast, the crews were kust cant stop laughing at them while we shooting and editing the video. Well... just dunno how to describe it what the funniset part thou. No matter what, we did it on time!

Elephants and Waterfall Trip

Yeap, that us!! The FOH crew.... The man in blue shirt that's our FOH manager, Syed. He's the one I said the entertainer in our team. Basically, that was nothing much on this trip (17.10.10). We just brought the cast to the Taman Gajah to have a visit with the elephants... hehehe. Then we went to a waterfall. Exactly the place, honestly I duno. It was Syed idea, so basically he was the one who lead the way.

A Piece By Klaus Badelt

From Pirates of The Carribean - The Curse of Black Pearl
Title: He's A Pirate
Written by Klaus Badelt

Well just to share what I've been listening to lately. I've been playing it more than thousand times I think... It has accompany me while on my way from home to Uni. Or I could just put it this way to say that, every time I drive this piece would never be apart in my trip.

Malacca With Pluck

I went to Malacca on my last day of holiday, it wasn't in my plan at 1st. But 3days before my holiday ended FOH Manager told me that we gonna go Malacca with the cast, he says gonna bring the cast visit the Crocodile. Thou is not an order, actually is a pleasure for the crews and me. I thought it will be a boring visitation, because the entertainer of the whole team wasn't there (FOH Manager). And I only got to know this while on my way to there. Anyway, as I said it's a pleasure, so it's alright.

After watching the crocodile, the stage manage Bebe Chan took them to the Jonker Walk to have the Chicken Rice Ball for lunch. Didn't know were they enjoying the food. Due to Bebe, she said be around the area till at nite then bring them to the night market, dinner and depart from Malacca to Ayer Keroh. Bottom of the heart, we only got to mingle around in the town area.

The FOH crews were enjoy the trip thou, so do I. But not sure about the cast, due to the stage manager did something annoying to the crews. Not so sure whether the cast realize or not. Anyway, I do enjoy the trip.

Time For Working In Theatre (Pluck)

For my sem break holidays, I've been given an apportunity to work in a theatre at PJ Live Arts for Pluck Musical Arson. PLUCK are not so much a classical trio, but they compete, dance, fight, ridicule, argue, scheme and seduce their way from Bach to the Beatles. They also play Brahms, Ravel and Vivaldi in a way that would have the composers laughing in their graves.

Featuring the exceptional talents of musicians Jon Regan (Viola), Kit Massey (Violin) and Flora Allison (cello and vocal).

He studied music at Exeter University and conducting at Trinity College of Music, London. In an effort to dissuade others following in his footsteps, Exeter has closed its music department, whilst Trinity has merely moved its campus to Greenwich. No word yet on the Institute of Education, where he studied just before joining Pluck. His time as a member of this incomplete quartet has taught him many new skills from a mastery of the guiro to an appreciation for all things orange. Outside Pluck, Jon conducts the Dorking Philharmonia in Surrey and TV appearances include playing the Duke of Wellington's body double for a Channel 4 documentary.

For four generations, a musical curse has afflicted the Massey family. At age 6, Kit finally succumbed when he was given his first violin, and quickly became addicted to the smell of rosin and prawn cocktail crisps. At Trinity College of Music, Kit discovered the dark arts of Jazz and beer, secret, furtive passions that remain with him to this day. He then embarked on a career encompassing many genre and climates. He has played Opera in Chile with the Sinfonia de Santiago, Gypsy ballads in France, Beethoven in the Goan jungle and gothic organ-jazz in Catford. TV work includes hand-doubling for Rupert Everett on the BBC, where he was asked to play “exquisitely badly”
Flora has been playing the cello since age 7 and has found many opportunities to entertain - the Floral Dance and morris dancing with paper napkins featuring highly in her repertoire. In 2006, she graduated The Guildhall School of Music and Drama. She has had a variety of experiences since, notably performing at the Montreaux Jazz Festival and featuring in a comic relief sketch on the BBC. Other than playing the cello, Flora has spent a lot of her life falling over, and at many times with her stylish green cello case on her back (some affectionately named her "turtle"). She is thrilled that performing with Pluck gives her the opportunity to embrace her love for performing music, being silly and falling over.


I've been watching this show over and over again in the theatre, all the fiery moments of the show were provided by Kit. He burnt Jon's music sheets because they were fighting for sharing a music stand then Flora shows up, 3 of them fighting while playing Johann Strauss’ Blue Danube Waltz, released smoke from his violin at the Turkish March and impersonated Jimi Hendrix by lighting up his instrument while performing Purple Haze (‘Scuse Me While I Kiss The Sky). The favourite part for the whole show of mine I think is while they are playing Purple Haze Scuse Me While I Kiss The Sky and change it to While I Kiss This Guy at the same time the dance moves to the guy that Flora fell in love to. Overall the show was awesome, hilarious, and pyromaniacs.

If you guys have the opportunity to watch their performance, go for it. Don't miss it. You won't regret to pay for that.

At the last day of performing, also the night for the celebration of successfully ended the tour, finally got the opportunity to have sole photo with polaroid with no any negative films or copy. It will be the precious one. Seriously, I'm gonna miss them.