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新成员

2012-01-19T22:57:00.001+08:00

家里一直都只有三位公主，现在公主生了自己一位小公主。长得非常可爱，非常有大小姐气质。公主的姐妹都很期待她的长大。

所谓生小孩不容易，公主不是在自然的情况生了宝宝，而是在小刀下诞生她的小公主。

昨晚，公主第一次看见自己肚皮，因生宝宝留下的痕迹，眼泪轻易的在眼眶产生一波波的浪。公主的娘马上安慰她，与她分享生她的经验，毕竟娘也是动刀下生下她。

公主的丈夫很多时候帮不上公主照顾宝宝，都在打游戏机，有点对他又恨又爱，真的很矛盾。

两个星期多的宝宝了。时间过得真的很快。宝宝移傳了我从小带这着的小病(G6PD)，看她皮肤和眼睛一天比一天的黄，有点不知怎么办。希望她可以像我一样健健康康的
长大咯。

[V] Channel ID

2011-12-22T19:54:00.003+08:00

Share with you guys this Channel ID I did for [V] Channel as an assignment.
Spend 12 hours in front of the computer. So killing me... At 1st, the 1st 6 hrs can be finish, who knows file corrupted, cant open after came back from lunch. Have to start from zero for the another 6 hrs from song composing to visual editing.

偶尔。感触

2011-12-22T17:59:00.003+08:00

今天是冬至，也就是12月22号。时间真的过得很快，今天不小心的打开一位老朋友的部落格，看见他上个月今天的post，让我想起他两年前的生日，想起所有为我这个朋友所做的小事情。虽然是件常渺小的事，不知道他还会有这段回忆吗，可是我就记得很清楚，因为那件事，我从不对任何人作如此的举动。不过还真的对他说一万个谢谢，如不是他，我想我还是不停的傻下去。所以对这位朋友，我真的感到十分的感谢。

今天透过部落格他所写的一切，才知道原来他们有了小孩，也完成了一个完整的家，家里有爸爸，妈妈和宝宝。对他除了含有感谢以外，现在还多了一份羡慕，也因为如此我也对他们感到了幸福。

暂时不想有任何想要拥有属于自己的一个家的我，我想我也没有很渴望对我现在的生活模式有任何的改变，而且，不晓得是工作做多了，还是在工作范围里的男生是没带脑袋上班吗？有时我在想，是我做事能力有问题，还是现代2字辈的男生太过于娇身管养了，脑筋都不必用了。

今年的MTI我没全程参与，原因是我太累了，不想再做一些重复性，每一年都做一样的活动，每一年都出现同一个问题，每一年开会都坚持的执著，每一年都会发生戏剧化的画面。而且，今年秘书处全都是新人，全都是我这个年纪，全都是刚毕业出来，没什么经验，也如此，前几天我回去探望一些保姆队的老同事，秘书处乱七八糟，问题一罗罗。让我也不好意思待太久，避免老板娘回来见到我，此地不可久留，不久就离开了现场。

公司的新同事，当中也有一位是我在中学时代蛮好的女朋友，看见新同事们，我真的没有后悔当年我停学了一段时间跑去做工。那时候的我，全公司年纪最小已非我莫属，对我的戒心没有这么高，比起现在的新人，很多时候，老板娘都不肯教，也没耐心，以前的我，做错了事虽然是有骂，可是还是会少下留情，最多摆张脸给我看，再来嫌我几句，比起现在的他们，当众直接打骂了才收声，那时的我幸福得多。

Simon's Birthday

2011-11-12T11:58:00.004+08:00

Lately nothing more than anything except for drinking. Thou lately busy with all the shooting and events. Especially end of the year, events and projects are much more than usual.

Last friday was simon's bday. We went to Bakita to celebrate his birthday. It was a crazy night. It's was only 10 ish. Everyone gone crazy, included me whom reached at 10. After a few shots, we decided go around Changkat and stop every single bistro. A wonderful night, even the bday boy can't even drive himself back.

Kinetic Text

2011-11-12T11:18:00.005+08:00

Random stuff did with AE. Still doing my effort to play with AE.

Something To Create Public Awareness

2011-10-01T23:40:00.004+08:00

Been busy for the last few days. Once after exam... The next day went to Malacca thought of shooting something nice. End up some mistakes happened, The shooting wasn't going in order. So end up back to KL for the whole shooting. Nothing much actually... Is just something for fun to create some awareness. Also a challenge for my team to finish these 2 clips in 36 hours. 1 day shooting for each video. 1 day for editing.

The BGM might be a bit off beat n weird cuz I compose them in a very last minutes in order to submit on time. If you notice, the 2 clips have the same BGM which doesn't into the clips actually. What to do, lack of time n equipment. That's the only way for my team n I can do.

1st Flash (PSA)

2011-09-07T19:05:00.004+08:00

1st time doing Flash... Thou bit crap... But thanks Vermillion XD

Wedding & Marriage

2011-09-06T18:11:00.012+08:00

People around me are getting married one by one. Saw the happiness on their face, how much pain had they been thru, we don't know. How hard they have to be, no ones can see. No matter how, the happiness is not faking. Is great to see the bridesmaids and best-mans standing beside the bride and the bridegroom. Standing besides them giving them the coverage, supports and love to hold each other hands and cherish.

Commit in each other life isn't a simple promise like buying a luxury branded bag, not like a bag that you could carry it when you like, put it away when you don't like, nor like a car that you drive for 5 years and change a new one when you think you have bored of it. Is a promise that stays much longer that you had bought an apartment. Marriage is a promise from the bottom of the heart and keeps it till the day you die. Marriage is a promise that you will never break, a promise that will bring them to the coffin of yours.

The moment you step into a church, the moment you had make your promises, is the moment that you need to be responsible what you do to your äktenskap (marriage).

I looking at my friends, their happiness is so true, the joy is so true. Their love life used to be like a roller coaster, up to the hill, down to the undersea, but who knows all this course of events had made their trust be more solid and stable.

I'm glad to see my friends are getting married. Or married. XD

Things N People Won't Stay Forever

2011-08-05T15:15:00.004+08:00

Well people in life in and out quite frequent, the one you think will stay forever but it will never be. Somehow they will stay out for unknown reason. The one you think you can trust, somehow they will be the one who push you from the back. I'm just too silly. I'm silly that I got to trust them easily. I started to hate everything around me. Everything that came to me, I feel so annoying.

The hardest thing that I couldn't believe is... I hate myself. What the point for me to stays here. I felt I gotto leave this place so much, so badly. Sometimes, I prefer not to talk. I really hate to tell things that I don't feel like, Leave me alone, I will tell whenever I want to.

I don't want to believe there is a "forever" thing. Nothing gonna stay forever. Don't tell me n convince me there is such thing in this world.

他的告别

2011-07-01T13:21:00.008+08:00

有聚必有散，这个道理每个人都懂，可是有谁真真可以压抑住不舍这份感觉。一年多年虽然不久，可是每一天都见着对方，有求必帮的老师真的还蛮难找的。我说嘛，人与人之间是说对不对到频率是很重要的，难得有位教师和我们这些学生聊得来，而且还玩得来真的很难的。（还比我们学生更夸张，更High）

老师已37了，可是还像我们这些小朋友一样好玩。他实在太可爱了。他真的令人感觉好不舍哦。我们全班太想他了。

云顶。父子。工作

2011-06-30T19:18:00.006+08:00

最近都比较忙拍摄的的事，也很久没有回到做Event的工作。在6月的最后一个星期六，上了云顶做了这个《珍亲真愛演唱會》。本来我是不必要上山，只需要在他们这些歌手走的时候确定他们安全上飞机可大功告成，谁知晚上十一点多的一通电话把我星期六所安排的拍摄全都要取消。工作量不大，而且也是我以前做习惯的routine。可是必须临时取消原本安排好的拍摄是真的还蛮对不起我的Crew，而且还拿了他们的星期日，之前我还答应他们星期日一定放他们假，谁知人算不如天算，真的非常抱歉我的Crew。几天前已知道D'Touch派了Dennis上云顶工作，可是不晓得他干什么活动，上到去有碰到了D'Touch的旧同事。大家的工作完毕了之后，才知道对方上来的工作是什么，我也告诉了他我看见台湾当红的童星小小彬啦。我想每个人都满想看看他和他玩玩。就刚好有时间拜访俩父子，就Call了Dennis和同事一起见见这位小朋友。不过说实在的，我比较想爸爸多过他儿子，还是觉得爸爸比较可爱。

PUTRAJAYA

2011-06-19T17:10:00.013+08:00

A random day told to take pictures at putrajaya. 4 of us, fully used the day. Depart from Penang in the morning, reach KL in the afternoon, went back home took a shower around 4pm. Straight away meet up at Bukit Jalil. 4 of us, 3 cars, not a friendly environment behavior, so they car pool mine. Reach Putrajaya around 5+, but we couldn't find the bridge. End up, thanks mum n dad gave me a good sense of direction, and finally we are reached. After these photos, we went to my favorite place to have dinner.

Eventually, I suppose to take more photos. But I'm sorry, I was too hungry, so were they. They didn't allowed me to take anymore photos as I had delay their meal time. XD

Perfume The Story Of A Murderer

2011-06-16T23:22:00.011+08:00

I was appoint to watch this movie one day, at 1st sight, I tot it was a horror movie instead. After watching it, I find it's a great movie and very well story line. Well, I was really surprise, never tot it will be that great. The main male character doesn't have much dialogue, but he conveys what and who he is by all the action. This is what we call a nice movie by delivering all the story and message by visual but not dialogue.

An obsessive French perfumer with a highly developed olfactory sense and an all-consuming drive to capture the essence of love eventually resorts to murder in his unrepentant quest to find the key ingredient for his recipe.Born in a fetid fish market and raised in a dilapidated orphanage Jean-Baptiste Grenouille (Ben Whishaw) toiled his childhood away in a rank tannery run by the thuggish Grimal (Sam Douglas). Subsequently obsessed by smell, Grenouille's keen olfactory sense becomes so finely tuned that it eventually overpowers such human qualities as love and compassion. Though he has indeed discovered the unmistakable scent of a woman, Grenouille finds it impossible to connect with the fairer sex on any sort of meaningful level. Roaming the streets of Paris late one night, Grenouille catches the scent of a young girl selling plums and impulsively strangles her, later sniffing her nude corpse in a twisted attempt to preserve the distinctive scent in his memory. After persuading legendary perfumer Giuseppe Baldini (Dustin Hoffman) to take him on as an apprentice, Grenouille travels to the town of Grasse in Southern France in order to learn the art of enfleurage at a firm run by the highly respected Mme. Arnulfi (Corinna Harfouch). It is there that Grenouille becomes dangerously drawn to the vestal aroma of the young and beautiful Laura(Rachel Hurd-Wood), the daughter of widower merchant Antione Richis(Alan Rickman). Soon driven to madness by such a pure scent, the spellbound Grenouille continues to claim the lives of the numerous young girls in a tragic attempt to bottle the impossibly elusive smell of virginal womanhood.

Directed by:Tom Tykwer

Written by:Andrew Birkin, Bernd Eichinger, Caroline Thompson, Tom Tykwer

Book Author:Patrick Suskind.

Tom Tykwer

A Day To Pulau Ketam

2011-06-15T21:09:00.009+08:00

Few weeks ago, during semester break I went to Pulau Ketam with some friends. The only thing I could conclude is... It's a Rubbish Island, it's full of rubbish. But still we spent a day over there... walk n eat. N capture some picture of it.

The BuBu Vacation

2011-06-06T00:41:00.015+08:00

I went to a tiny island in Perhentian Island for my vacation. It was a very last minute trip cuz I didn't plan to go at first. It's all becuz of a friend suddenly change his mind for not going, so... instead of wasting an flight ticket so I made up my mind to go, and of course my heart tells me that I wanted to go to an island.

Well... I didn't expect much in this trip, I didn't expect it will be greatly fun or besides, what I know is I need to unplug myself from the city, from all the electronic devices, all the networking, enjoy my time at there till the max even no one on my side who will go as crazy as I am. XD

Back to few years, apparently I saw myself working like a cow, wherever I was, definitely all the devices never leave me apart. Being an agent, is not an easy job, got to sacrifice alot of time on socializing and keep tracking. I met kelvin in this vacation, he is doing what I did in the previous time, phone calls never stop. Cant leave the phone for a couple of minutes, make sure is charge n blah blah blah. That was my life.

But... got back to student life, it's way much easier. Thou isn't as "wealthy" as b4 cuz not any more in full time, as a part timer only can part of the fees and some pocket money. Got to work harder for the extras. Secretly I prefer like this.

Back to the topic of this vacation, in Malaysia is hardly to find an Island plus a tourist spot which is as clean as this spot. Sadly to say I bet few more years later, this place definitely gonna be polluted like what Redang Island is now.
I spent 3days in here, I did snorkeling... as usual, but sadly it's doesn't surprise me thou, they brought me back to the same spot where I've been b4 when I went to Redang and Lang Tengah Island. Is just nothing much different. But no matter how... compare with the local island, it's still has the nice part of it.

However, I like the environment and the ppl that build up by there. Therefore, I had a great time over there especially at the nite time, 1st time I was drunk in my room with few friends playing some stupid games... surprisingly all of us slept b4 12. On the 2nd nite, friends n I literally went to the open air party with all the alcoholics, the locals, the english, the spanish, all over the world, how am I fucking remember where are they from. The most great time is drink as much as you can and drunk like an asshole still the doesn't matter. Do whatever crazy stuff... Fuck like an idiot but no one cares.That was a vacation for. Unleash yourself... That's the goal and mission... XD

What's your way?

2011-04-16T00:10:00.001+08:00

Well things happen in couple of minutes. I fell for him, he fell for me. oooooooh.. Boring stories... Cant all this ridiculous romance stories out of my life? I've tried to believe in promises, but the facts are proving that these are rubbish.

No offend that all these to me are rubbish, but it doesn't mean you believe those are rubbish too. Define rubbish. Rubbish=things are not in use, don't need, ridiculous, non sense in your life.

Well, not only me been thru these. I'm definately sure that

Things that friends can do, doesn't means he can do. Things that he can do, doesn't means friends can do. Every one in ones life has the particular of usage. If let you choose, what would you choose to be in someone's life?

I would rather be a friend. That sounds more simple.

一个礼拜

2011-04-03T19:16:00.005+08:00

一整个礼拜都不是过的这么顺利，该说以整个月。由于功课的问题，搞得我都很压力，压力到我灵魂都几乎不见了。一山未停一山又起，再来是出了车祸。假如当天不是早出应该不会出车祸。。。可是很多事都没有假如，要发生此终都会发生。

好啦，车祸后当然没有车上学啦，是有一定的不方便。所以只好car pool朋友的车咯。那当然，也要顺着他的时间上学咯。也只好翘课咯。这对我来说还是理所当然的。这一场车祸，让我看见真友和假友，这一整个礼拜可以看见哪些朋友是真的关心，哪些朋友是假关心，是真正的虚伪。让我感到非常的痛心，非常的失望。假设有什么麻烦到的地方可以对我坦白的说，也不必要在我背后生气，这反而让我更心痛。口口声声为我好？哼~！或许是真的吧~ 是打从心里为我好还是另一会事，我猜只有他们才知道。可是那一秒钟什么为我自己好我最清楚，我要的是空间，再强逼我说任何的故事都没用，不想说就是不想说。

可能是自己不会分类朋友群的关系，没想到我认为在我有困难可以依赖的时候的那群朋友可以给与我帮助扫了我的兴，那些我以为只能偶尔相处下，一起做功课，自己外面的生活不会聊太多的朋友不会这么当心想帮助你，事实证明我错了。

我固执我想每个人都知道，连老师和我说话的时候，也说我是个很固执的人。对~我是，不否认！我不是那种死缠烂打的人，尤其是我自己生活里的事。拒绝了一次，我不会哀求第二次，只要的说一声不，坚决点，我不会再纠缠着你。

终之我感谢那些帮我，也让了房间里的空间过夜的人。谁是真心谁不是，我现在很清楚。

要的是时间和空间

2011-03-27T22:46:00.002+08:00

身体和灵魂都很累了，不知道该怎么办了。不想争，不想吵，不想烦，不想动，什么都不想，只是想好好的去一次，不必人陪，自己一个人就好了。要求不高，可是对我而言，就是件困难的事。

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就是不喜欢我的故事有他

2011-03-06T20:32:00.008+08:00

不知道几时开始故事又再次的推广到另一个版本。难道男与女之间真的不能做好朋友吗？难道朋友之间只要走得比较进就有不寻常得关系吗？怀疑归怀疑，如果今天那个对象不是他，换是一个背景比较白的人我可能就不理，可是这位朋友真的不是我任何一道菜。第一，我知道他是我两位中学巨蟹座朋友的前度男友。有一位更是以前是爽性恋（B），同时他和我一位女生朋友一起。
更何况，我比谁都知道他在追我这位（A）巨蟹座的朋友出的手段是什么。

而且我不欣赏他，不欣赏他做事的态度。不欣赏他又怎能可以不顾一切（身边的闲话）和他在一起呢？不欣赏他在工作间追我的选美选手，在工作期间男工作人员对我比赛里的选手有非份之想是一个禁。他却违规了这个规章。违规了就算，自控下别太朝阳两人的关系就算了，可是既然可以在记者会手牵手，让女方坐在自己的大腿上。难道其他人都死了吗？难道老板都死了吗？难道一直帮他守这个秘密的我死了吗？这种目中无人的小弟怎么可能有任何的智慧。话说回来，我就是不欣赏他的做法。

如果对他有任何的私心，我怎会又有可能不断的把Sa和他抽在一起呢？再来的是那时我已经和我的老板在一起。虽然不是一段很得意又骄傲的事，可是我真的从来没有对他有什么非份之想，我想他或许也是这么想。

不晓得不寻常关系的定义在那儿，每个人的定义都不一样。走的比较近的定义是暧昧吗？那暧昧的定义又在哪儿？没有任何感觉称呼对方dear，darling，baby，这些算暧昧吗？没有爱情的相处算暧昧吗？只不过经常见个面算暧昧吗？那我可不是和我所有Close Friends都有一腿吗？不分男男女女都和我暧昧吗？

之所以为什么当初走得比较进，可能是缘分，朋友间的缘分。那时候的我，学会了麻将，我整天都吵着要打麻将。他也许完成我的心愿，也顺着我的要求找他的兄弟一起打。也有可能因为这样，他常常来载我的关系，所以应起了闲人的闲话，也有可能我们真的走得有点进，所以很多亲密的动作令别人误会。这也算是暧昧吗？

可是不可以因这样，把故事传到我好像把身体都给了他这样啊。故事我听太多了，他的坏事我也听太多了，要是把我和他说在一起我真的很介意。很介意他的过去硬要把我说在里头。我很介意谁和我在一起过，很介意我另一半是谁。很介意另一半在感情线里的清白。

朋友在我生活里是一定要的，所以我不会太挑剔朋友，就算是怎么坏，怎么夸张的朋友，他们都是我朋友。可是一位坏的男朋友，对不起，我不会要，就算有任何的感觉，对不起，对这块我比较理性，我怎么也不会塌出那一步。更何况，他是我某一些女生朋友的前度男友，不是一位女生友，是很多女生友的前度男友，就算是要我孤独一生我都不会有任何非分之想。

也因为怕了闲话，尤其是我，特别是我，特别觉得闲话说我和他就特别的geli。所以我们俩慢慢的疏远了。对不起，就算别人说我是第三者，当老板的情妇，我都无所谓，因为我是。可是要把他扯进来我就觉得不好受。为什么人终是把事情看得这么不一样？就不能单纯一点吗？

Who Win : Who Lose

2011-01-11T00:47:00.007+08:00

Well I've been in pageant line for quite some years off n on. In 2008, Miss Tourism Queen Of The Year, was a tough pageant for me. This I meant mentally, I wasn't ready for work, but I've promise to, no choice I got to. Everyday working, my soul wasn't there untill oneday I was crystal clear to know that everything there is a circle.

Miss Tourism International, this year's title. This year was the most tough pageant I ever been. I meant physically, this year pageant most of the things were in the wrong track. It was not smooth at 1st. I dun like this year working environment, I think the main problem is not the collegues but the 1 who lead us, so call lady boss.

Being a leader, got to earn ones respect. sorry, sadly to say she cant n I dare to say she will never learn that. She might be sucessfull in something, but she fail in friendships and lost all the friends. Those are around her so call as friends are bullshit. How could someone lives without friends? And not even close with own family members? Someone who love money more than others can even do better than her.

I like money, I cant reach that yet, in this part... What I can only say SHE WON! But got to tell her, money is nothing when you have no friends around to share the happiness. In another way, that's call loser too.

I run away

2010-12-05T04:29:00.004+08:00

End of the year 2010. Miss Tourism International. Never deny that I run away from who IM again. What make that? Well, im gonna work for pageant event, as the same thing, im gonna stay in a hotel for 3weeks. Why would I say so I ran away from myself again.
I actually have a choice to make myself not working for this event. But there is a thing I dun wan to commit myself, that's why I keep myself busy. Working. Yes, I dun wanna commit, so I have choose to leave the prob by fulfilling my time with work again. So that I wun involve for the things happen outside of the hotel.

!@$*$@&**@&!

2010-12-05T00:35:00.005+08:00

This year classes are ended on today. Today was the last screening for the 1st drama production. I don take it happily to end this whole year study, but sadly. I feel sad and depress after the screening, not becuz the result for the production, but the progress for this production. I don feel nice after everything done, what I meant is the connection between the crews is zero, is nothing. This is the one thing that I feel so commiserate for. I lose my faith on them. I just duno how to get the faith back, how am I gonna trust them again?

Adam

2010-11-28T22:19:00.016+08:00

Music by
Directed by	Max Mayer
Produced by	Miranda De Pencier Leslie Urdang Dean Vanech
Written by	Max Mayer
Starring	Hugh Dancy Rose Byrne Peter Gallagher Amy Irving Frankie Faison
Cinematography	Seamus Tierney
Editing by	Grant Myers

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Adam is a 2009 comedy-drama film written and directed by Max Mayer, starring Hugh Dancy (Adam Raki) and Rose Byrne (Beth Buchwald). The film follows the relationship between a young man named Adam (Dancy) with Asperger syndrome and the woman of his dreams, Beth (Byrne). Mayer was inspired to write the film's script when he heard a radio interview with a man who had Asperger's.
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Recommend you guys to watch this movie. I like the story, it potraying how a asperger person live, and they try hard to be a normal like us just not to be exclusion in this society. Hugh Dancy is well acting of how a asperger is.

Y2S3 2008 The Last Exit

2010-11-21T17:58:00.006+08:00

Well a group of University Tunku Abdul Rahman Year 2 Sem 3 in 2008 students sucessfully won six awards under the Anugerah Perdana and eight awards under the Anugerah Cipta on the Award Night (Malam Anugerah) of the festival, which was attended by VIPs and local celebrities. Among them were YB Dato' Seri Mohd Shafie Apdal, Minister of National Unity, Culture, Arts and Heritage, and YB Senator Tan Sri Jins Shamsudin.

"The awards won by the students under the Anugerah Perdana were:

1) Best Short Video
2) Best Supporting Actor
3) Best Editing
4) Best Documentary
5) Best Documentary Director
6) Best Editing

The awards won by the students under the Anugerah Cipta were:

1) Best Production Award
2) Best Music Video Award
3) Best Commercial Award
4) Best Short Video(Fiction) Director Award
5) Best Cinematography Award
6) Best Art Direction Award
7) Best Editing Award
8) Best Sound Effects Award

Actually I was very randomly knew that my seniors had make such a big proud for UTAR. Of course I watched this filem before I posted it up here and I really think it's a great production I ever screen in UTAR's materpiece.

Triumph

2010-11-13T18:50:00.006+08:00

From the bottom of our heart, we , the crews don't deny that the shooting, the angle, the quality, the acting are bad. But this is for the sake of finishing up the work on time and done. close file. hahaha. But I've watched it many times, might be we know both of the cast, the crews were kust cant stop laughing at them while we shooting and editing the video. Well... just dunno how to describe it what the funniset part thou. No matter what, we did it on time!

Elephants and Waterfall Trip

2010-11-13T18:17:00.002+08:00

Yeap, that us!! The FOH crew.... The man in blue shirt that's our FOH manager, Syed. He's the one I said the entertainer in our team. Basically, that was nothing much on this trip (17.10.10). We just brought the cast to the Taman Gajah to have a visit with the elephants... hehehe. Then we went to a waterfall. Exactly the place, honestly I duno. It was Syed idea, so basically he was the one who lead the way.

A Piece By Klaus Badelt

2010-11-07T22:12:00.011+08:00

From Pirates of The Carribean - The Curse of Black Pearl
Title: He's A Pirate
Written by Klaus Badelt

Well just to share what I've been listening to lately. I've been playing it more than thousand times I think... It has accompany me while on my way from home to Uni. Or I could just put it this way to say that, every time I drive this piece would never be apart in my trip.

Malacca With Pluck

2010-10-30T22:19:00.015+08:00

I went to Malacca on my last day of holiday, it wasn't in my plan at 1st. But 3days before my holiday ended FOH Manager told me that we gonna go Malacca with the cast, he says gonna bring the cast visit the Crocodile. Thou is not an order, actually is a pleasure for the crews and me. I thought it will be a boring visitation, because the entertainer of the whole team wasn't there (FOH Manager). And I only got to know this while on my way to there. Anyway, as I said it's a pleasure, so it's alright.

After watching the crocodile, the stage manage Bebe Chan took them to the Jonker Walk to have the Chicken Rice Ball for lunch. Didn't know were they enjoying the food. Due to Bebe, she said be around the area till at nite then bring them to the night market, dinner and depart from Malacca to Ayer Keroh. Bottom of the heart, we only got to mingle around in the town area.

The FOH crews were enjoy the trip thou, so do I. But not sure about the cast, due to the stage manager did something annoying to the crews. Not so sure whether the cast realize or not. Anyway, I do enjoy the trip.

Time For Working In Theatre (Pluck)

2010-10-30T17:21:00.014+08:00

For my sem break holidays, I've been given an apportunity to work in a theatre at PJ Live Arts for Pluck Musical Arson. PLUCK are not so much a classical trio, but they compete, dance, fight, ridicule, argue, scheme and seduce their way from Bach to the Beatles. They also play Brahms, Ravel and Vivaldi in a way that would have the composers laughing in their graves.

Featuring the exceptional talents of musicians Jon Regan (Viola), Kit Massey (Violin) and Flora Allison (cello and vocal).

He studied music at Exeter University and conducting at Trinity College of Music, London. In an effort to dissuade others following in his footsteps, Exeter has closed its music department, whilst Trinity has merely moved its campus to Greenwich. No word yet on the Institute of Education, where he studied just before joining Pluck. His time as a member of this incomplete quartet has taught him many new skills from a mastery of the guiro to an appreciation for all things orange. Outside Pluck, Jon conducts the Dorking Philharmonia in Surrey and TV appearances include playing the Duke of Wellington's body double for a Channel 4 documentary.

For four generations, a musical curse has afflicted the Massey family. At age 6, Kit finally succumbed when he was given his first violin, and quickly became addicted to the smell of rosin and prawn cocktail crisps. At Trinity College of Music, Kit discovered the dark arts of Jazz and beer, secret, furtive passions that remain with him to this day. He then embarked on a career encompassing many genre and climates. He has played Opera in Chile with the Sinfonia de Santiago, Gypsy ballads in France, Beethoven in the Goan jungle and gothic organ-jazz in Catford. TV work includes hand-doubling for Rupert Everett on the BBC, where he was asked to play “exquisitely badly”
Flora has been playing the cello since age 7 and has found many opportunities to entertain - the Floral Dance and morris dancing with paper napkins featuring highly in her repertoire. In 2006, she graduated The Guildhall School of Music and Drama. She has had a variety of experiences since, notably performing at the Montreaux Jazz Festival and featuring in a comic relief sketch on the BBC. Other than playing the cello, Flora has spent a lot of her life falling over, and at many times with her stylish green cello case on her back (some affectionately named her "turtle"). She is thrilled that performing with Pluck gives her the opportunity to embrace her love for performing music, being silly and falling over.

I've been watching this show over and over again in the theatre, all the fiery moments of the show were provided by Kit. He burnt Jon's music sheets because they were fighting for sharing a music stand then Flora shows up, 3 of them fighting while playing Johann Strauss’ Blue Danube Waltz, released smoke from his violin at the Turkish March and impersonated Jimi Hendrix by lighting up his instrument while performing Purple Haze (‘Scuse Me While I Kiss The Sky). The favourite part for the whole show of mine I think is while they are playing Purple Haze Scuse Me While I Kiss The Sky and change it to While I Kiss This Guy at the same time the dance moves to the guy that Flora fell in love to. Overall the show was awesome, hilarious, and pyromaniacs.

If you guys have the opportunity to watch their performance, go for it. Don't miss it. You won't regret to pay for that.

At the last day of performing, also the night for the celebration of successfully ended the tour, finally got the opportunity to have sole photo with polaroid with no any negative films or copy. It will be the precious one. Seriously, I'm gonna miss them.

Past tense

2010-09-28T20:23:00.003+08:00

Recorded on 2008 October.
Songs that kindda memorable to me. Or... shud I say, at that time it was. but sorry not now anymore. hahahahaa. It's been almost 2 years ago. So who cares? haahhahaa. Honestly, I don't care. :D

Langkawi

2010-09-28T19:10:00.009+08:00

Well... Way back few weeks ago... I went to langkawi with a very last min plan. What inspire me to be there? I may say the beach and the liquor I think. Hahaha. It was simon suggestion anyway, he asked me whether am I interested to go with him? I said why not man? It's cool!! But actually, that period was the most hectic week in Uni. Due to our presentation falls on the last day of school. And that was the most important subject as a BC student. but.... to make my self to Langkawi. I overnight at uni to do editing. I know I dont have to do so... but... anyway... cuz I afraid of my assignment couldn't hand in ontime, plus that was a group assignment. nah~ dun feel like wanna kill my new groupmate. hahaha. so... just a minute before departing from KL. Finally manage to finish up the editing. hahaha. So... What am I waiting for? Put my ass into that Island man. hahahaha

Seriously to say that. I really had alot of fun there. The beach, the liquor, the people all are awesome! The fun part is I carry the camera every where took some random pictures. That's my favourite part becuz I get rid of them and walk all along the beach took some pictures. Couldn't share much the pictures, due the pictures still with the idiotic.

A Short Drama

2010-09-21T01:27:00.007+08:00

Alright~~~ Feel florist to share something that what my friends produce... my pleasure to help them in their assignment. After the production, I was quite refuse to share short film, because I'm still new in uni, to be low profile... decide not to share in too public. The reason is because I want to stay low profile, doesn't want to be that expose around uni.

But since the production has screened on the screening day, so... nothing to be covered from my friends. Whom most of them already know bout this. hahaha.
sooo.... check this out.. apologize that there are some line's audio is not that proper.

Media Influences

2010-09-15T00:26:00.003+08:00

There are some positive and negative influences in young people.

Here is a positive influence example, if there is a sport that is getting a lot of attention by the media and gains popularity among your friends and society, you will more likely want to practice the sport and be cool with all your friends. The result is that you will have fun with your friends and be more healthy because of the exercise your are doing.

However a negative influence in teenagers is the use of cigars by celebrity movie stars, the constant exposure of sex images, the excessive images of violence and exposure to thousands of junk food ads.

Young people are in a stage of life where they want to be accepted by their peers, they want to be loved and be successful. The media creates the ideal image of a beautiful men and women and tells you what are the characteristics of a successful person, you can see it in movies and tv. Its a subliminal way to tell you that if you are not like them you are not cool yet so its time to buy the stuff they buy and look like they look.

Nothing More Than This At The Moment

2010-09-13T18:54:00.006+08:00

This is what and who am I suppose to be. Term... Theory... Essay... Writting... Memorize... Understanding... Study... EXAM!! Slowly get back to full time study. Eversince foundation, I've be out of practice studying for 1 and a half year.

But to be honest to say, in this presence of one and a half year, I was fully enjoy my days. At least I really be what I love to be. This one and a half year, I got to know alot of friends, and manage to get back to my high school friends. And this is one of the thing that I'm pleasure about. :)

Suppose to be Paint Ball or Pain Ball

2010-07-30T18:36:00.002+08:00

On the 24 July, went for paint ball with uni friends and my lecturer. It was pretty fun, or should I say freaking fun!!! Hahahaha!! As you can c, we make it into 2 teams. Red team stand by Jon, Yasmin, Natalie, Makenthira (Don the lecturer), Amanda from Help College.

Yea that's right!! I'm in Blue Team. Opposing the Red Team lead by Makenthira. But we have Jazz, Daniel, Jordon (from australia), Joshua (from australia), Simon and me. Joshua is our silent weapon, he's tiny enuff to hide wherelse no one can catch on him. We have Jordon, he makes a lot of beautiful moves during the war. Very impressive! Then we have Daniel, to be rigourous to say that daniel was the leader for blue team. He caught the strategies in the end of the game and he leads Joshua and Jordan to make the killing moves. As for Simon, heart broken la~ At the beginning he was in the blue team, becuz of Amanda (Red Team) she has to leave early and simon bump into Red team and leave us.

C the prove of betrayer in next team in this picture.

Stepping into the court of war

But no matter how, at the end of the day, we all freaking enjoy ourselves. Thou was tiring, but it was nice for being shot. The bruise on everyone was the evidence of being shot. Haha, painful but shoknya~ hahaha.

Owh ya! Alot of people asking where is this place and the price for the game. To be honest, this is the cheapest paint ball that I could find.

Only cost RM120/pax for 400 pellets (inclusive of marker, mask, and field rental.

*PROMO: come in pairs, the girl plays for free. =D (so it become RM60/pax)
(ie. if got 5 boy and 5 girls, the 5 girls play for free. =D)

Locate at Malaysian Paintball Academy (MAPAAC), Padang ASTAKA, PJ. Its just behind Hotel Armada in S14, accessible via Federal Highway and also PUTRA LRT, where you should alight at Asia Jaya Station, and from there, its a 5-10 minutes walk.

Should you be driving, it is advisable to make a turn at the Amcorp Mall bridge junction (not at the PJ Hilton Hotel bridge junction) and turn into St. Paul's church on the left for easy access into Padang Astaka.

10 July 2010

2010-07-17T23:38:00.005+08:00

This day was a day that I went to Ipoh with Maxx, Yanny, Shine, Kenny and Mei Teng. They are the buddies who brought me back to the reality. They are the buddies that brought me up when I needed someone to spare with. And I would never forget when I lose a bunch of friends they were there for me. And to be honest to say, I really enjoy this trip.

But when come to the night time party. It was shermen's 22nd bday. I was glad to c one of my friend was there after all the misunderstands or whatever. However, everyone know is a waste to lose a friend because of misunderstands. I'm glad to c him back in this bunch of friends. Moreover they are the buddies that used to spent alot on each other, the brotherhood they used to have is a persistence.

However, this party should be happy and sedate. Sorry to say, I still don't feel comfortable for my attendance being there. Actually it suppose to be a warm party but sorry to say that I couldn't pretend anymore. At first I really thought I could overcome the fear and disorder, but the facts prove that I couldn't make it by myself. End up Jon came and pick me with Simon and Jazz. Luckily they came, they knew that I wasn't in a good fettle, they have spent the whole night with me till 3+I think... and that makes me superb tired and I got into a sound sleep finally.

Keracut Beach & Batu Ferringhi

2010-06-04T23:03:00.002+08:00

When to Penang Island for my last sem break. The place that I started to know everything. Well, be here back is to piece back every single puzzle into where they are belong. It's also a way to say good bye for the things been thru.

Though we know each other not that long, for only a sem or less than that except for yee ling.Others-Jon, Aaron, Jazz and Nat they are my classmates. The special one i think is simon, i only got to know him in this trip. Seriously, before this trip begins I only know that he's my PR lecture class rep, and as usual... I won't be in the class especially on monday classes. So that's why I dont know who the hell he is. The thing he know bout me was, either I late for class and yee ling will reserve a seat for me or couldn't find me in the class. Hahaha.

I didn't know that Penang could find so much fun. I think is the beach and water sports awaken me from emo. From the bottom of heart to say that, this trip was a recovery trip for us.hmm... I think so. ahahahaha. The greatest thing in this trip except the beach I think it's the time we spent together at night. We spent few nights together, drinking, gaming, pillow talking, after all these, got to know each other better by the game called "I've never". Got to know my friends, what's the words from the bottom of the heart. Especially simon. hahahaha. Thou at the last, I was being emo by the pictures but yet, buddies pull me back to face what's belong to me and what's not.

Alot of things happen before, during and after this trip. And I got to know 1 thing after I came back to kl, this was told by a friend call Ren. Luckily aaron din say anything during the trip, if so i think that could change our friendship to worst. Really thanks god, aaron found his loves one in the second sem, and they are doing great in this period. Bless him as how I bless Jon and Simon. Hope they recover soon and got a better one SOON. especially Jon. hahahahahahaa. Loser. hahahahaha

Fortune Teller Said

2010-05-10T18:42:00.007+08:00

I meet a fortune teller today, she said bout my past, my current. but not much on my future. She just ask me to do what for my future. She also said that Im tough. wow~ What a smile on my face. DO I?? hahaha. Im tough due to the date of birth of mine. Impress. Im born to be tough but not learn to be tough. XD She said Im born to be a leader, is just that c whether I wanna take it or not. She also said that my life is not hard to walk though Im alone.

From how she analyze kmy birth day, she said im lucky to have my parents. My parents very sayang me. XD hehehehe. YES, THEY ARE!!!! cuz they let me fly. :D She said the one who control me is my elder sis, she's very smart, tough and knowledgable. yes she is, never deny that. She said i always fight with my sis cuz she born to have egolisme, but she dun have a good temper n she said I dun like to listen to her "stories". Hahahaha. yes I'm.

She also said that I'll be stable in my own financial at the age of after 28. lol. Im so old at that age. She din say much on my career, as she said Im still studying.

Yet, come to my relationship. She said he'll back. hahahaha. I think is the funniest thing I heard. Then I tell her, he already with some other woman. She said this must be your classmate. LOL. Quite close, not my classmate, but is my church friend. hahaha. She said that this guy have alot of bad record after I told her his date of birth of him. hahahaha. Wow~ she said he's not . hahahahaha. I feel like laugh out man. Ask me to be careful if he really come back. Well, I duno whether am I shud believe this part. Due to previously, I ended a relationship with a singer, a tarot fortune teller also said that he'll be back to me, ask me to be patient. LOL. and now another fortune teller tell me that HE will be back. wow~ so many will come back meh? gila... hahahahaha. well, might be coming back geh, but not now, might be happens in the next century. Gam I believe in karma geh... She said now he with your friend let them b... she wans him let him be with her. (hahahaha) I just knock my head with grins. XD

不对

2010-04-29T12:16:00.004+08:00

我不晓得我还能不能，大大方方的维持友情。他变了，现在的他真的变了，和他在一起的那段时间，我以为我自己能改变他的想法，可是他选择放弃。之间有太多的故事，我们的故事不是在他和她那儿说起（7个月前），而是在1年又5个月前发生。

很多事情都是说对的时侯，我只能说我们的时间真的不对，在不对的时间，把一对男女凑成一起，做了不对的事情，导致大家有不对的感觉。

A month later from 3rd march

2010-04-20T19:20:00.005+08:00

Well... it's been more than 2 weeks i din touch my blog... I duno whether I have letting everything go, but i confirm there are some1 beside me now. V end it for more than a month, thru out this period, I went out with my friends alot. no matter is old friends, new friends, young ones or old ones. I filled my time with work n joyful. I duno whether is good or what, but this definately makes me feel better than i sit at home. I try my best to forget every single day, every single place, every single movie v watched. Ever since im with him, i trained to watch horror movie, becuz he loves to watch.

He's bad, he's good, I've heard so much no matter b4 v started, or after v ended. I've tired with all his stories, I duno whether which one is the lie and which is the truth. He has make so many mistakes again n again. He speaks one set n do with another set... I started losing faith on him. He has the age and maturity to settle what had he done. But yet, just duno y, he always make the same mistake. He has back to her embrace and i very confirm with that. He had admit with that. I have to, want to, and need to congrats him. I never deny is me the one who rule they both up. I know I've rule them, but then isnt't unconciously at this period im become the "third party"? I duno, and I dun wan to know. I knew I've did something wrong, at that period I tried so hard to makes things back in track. I refuse seeing him, but at last I'm pursuaded. I was pursuaded by him back to his embrace, yes I did. Now even I think back, I was so foolish, so silly being pursuaded back to his embrace. Why? why was I so silly, if that time I stand right at my position, it wouldn't be so bad now. Why I moved?

I thought I revenging, but in the end I get more pain but he get not even a pain. Especially he admit the status of them from his own mouth. I hate myself whenever I couldn't tears, laugh, sad, happy when it time to be. I hide myself so hard when I meet him. You know how bad isn't when ones cant laugh cant tears? I know how it feel, and it is not a good feeling. Is worst than a knife poking on your chest.

I duno why I was being pursuaded back to his embrace everytime I wanted to leave? I refuse seeing him but in the end I still sohai back to his embrace. Why I wasn't stand right at my position? Why I was moved? If time I wasn't moved, now will be much more better than now, I dun have to suffer so hard n painfull enuff. I hate no matter how, now Im still rounding him in my life. Shud I say thanks to him or... God? I'm not sure, but the thing I pretty sure is, he's now living happily. How could I jus letting he be and not torturing myself? Can some1 just delete all my memories so that I dun remember every single things of him? And do hope his dream come true at the end of this year by giving birth to a child.

KimchiHaru, Poppy

2010-03-28T15:39:00.005+08:00

Well it's been quite some time i nver hang up with my foundation buddies. Eventhough this is not all of it but a part at KimchiHaru, jaya 1. But still i miss the moment with them. Lately i got the chance to help them up in their shooting assignment, well ystd nite was the last scene for the whole production. It quite tiring for the whole production. But still i enjoy every moment with eventhough during the whole progress is kindda frus, anyway, it nice when everything done.

Well this is not how i end my day, by shooting n makan. After makan, receive melissa phone call. WOW~~ as u guys know lately i really dun wanted to think so much, know so much, hear so much n bother so much. This brings me to unwanted to stay at home is some kind of feeling too. receive melissa's call of course is go hang up d. At 1st, tot of goin to lot 10, the roof. but becuz of there are few children are not allowed to in. that's y we have to change our location to poppy. hahaha. well, poppy i've been quite several times. but yet this time was the most craziest n funny night. cuz usually i've to jaga my baby when i got in there with them. or hang up with friends with drinking n playing around with them. Ystd nite went with some younger guys n of course there are some old age guy too. hahaha. well the 1st time of being take care from them, even the younger one, they are funny man. They know i being molested, keep on protecting me. lol. you can could never imagine how they dance to kick away those "flies". sure laugh like hell man. I ended my night with a big mouth laugh. It's cool. i'll b back with u guys again. ;)

Nite Time At Muse

2010-03-18T01:22:00.010+08:00

I end today with melissa. After dinner, me n her went to Jaya 1 minum. So funny, suppose today dun have to drop by there due to my classes n shit. But end up, I minum kat sana. haha. no matter how, i pulak have to go there. haha.

Jaya 1, Muse. With my bloody marry. ><><Guess who I met, Alice. Such suprising met her there.

Lim Teh With Joseph

2010-03-17T19:48:00.001+08:00

LOL~ C who's there for me 2day.

Suppose today I've an appointment to meet up 8am at puchong. Is 8am duh~~~ But end up appointment cancel tiba tiba. So from 8+ I call call call call text text text c who's free to have breakfast n fill my empty time. Call those who are not working, holy shit. If bukan cannot reach then is not picking up. Then text those who working, end up no 1 can curi tulang come out. sienz... Skrg look for them they cant curi tulang, biasa I tak de expect they can curi tulang then they curi tulang keep on ask me mahjong, lepak n etc. Duh~~ Sienz. End up, dear joseph call back. HAHAHAHA!!! Gao Sing Come La~~ hahaha!! From puchong, drove to mid valley, seksyen 17, bandar utama, damansara, then dear joseph finally return call then I back to sunway, bukit jalil n all the way to kl. Is act I wanted to makan at pess school, then who knows v both forgotten is school holiday, Pess canteen mana ade buka? hahaha. Due to this, so v change it to where v lepak while v in high school. haha Yong Guang! tak perasan tak perasan, v chat for 3 hours d. If not I need to back home, I think I'll lepak till late nite cari kawan kat kl kat cheras lim teh lim teh. hehe~Back home early not becuz got things to do at home, is becuz the princess Melissa ask me lim teh. and I've promise her to lim teh with her. so back home n wait for her lo. Reach home drop of for half an hour, went to the nearest complex for gossip gossip her own stuff to me. haha!! This is how I pass my day with ponteng ing my classs. Lol!! Gosh~ In the meanwhile, I kena police block, what to do? Give minum lo. Sienz!! :)

Hard Time 。 Thanks

2010-03-14T23:15:00.004+08:00

From the day of stepping into 2010, I know there are lot of stuff for me to face. Well, seems cant run away from all this. This few weeks really a hard time for me. The worst is, I knew I need to do alot of stuff, but my heart, my passion, my motion, my goal, all aren't with me. What I know is drink drank drunk only. Every night, I need to swollow alot of liquor then only I got to sleep for avoiding some unnecessary thinking. I just dont know how to control myself being not to think of crap. This is the only way to anesthetize myself.

Thanks melissa be there when I lose something. Thanks baobei borrowing your ears. Thanks my cousin bro, he's awsome. He brought me to G6. 1st time he being so nice by not teasing me at all. Thanks my 2 baby michelle n jaz spend so much time on me, accompany, entertain me, she really look for something that I usually love to do which can make me happy. Well, too bad in the end she doesn't succeed. Well I appreciate what she did, at least she could comfort me till to have a nice sleep. Well, thank for nick being there for me for this 2 saturday.I had a nice time with him, eventhough 3 of us are colleague, but what he did to me forever cant compare with... Well jus to thanks my friends who help me alot. Thanks.

Well!! I think Im back in the track now. After all, release alot alot. N now feel much better than usual. I've let it go man! Thanks to all my buddy.

stop torturing

2010-03-11T18:50:00.003+08:00

I've been use for a year to put down everything. A year, isn't short time or a long time to u? After a year, i've recovered. Fully recovered. Dont think of anything regard xxx. N now another incident happen, same shit. Is jus diff ppl take over. the main character has been change. wtf. what is this all about? Revenge? or what? When i got to start my life without xxx shadow. n pops up with another thing to rule my life. How hard my life get back into what i was, n suddenly change me to what i'm not, when i got used to it, it says the game shud be end. N have to change me back to the previous. U think i can transform whatever i want isn't? duh~ Headache man!! Plz dun rule me again. Im sick of it. I jus want myself back without xxx shadow. k?

Working Vs Study

2010-03-10T00:42:00.004+08:00

I feel like goin back to my working life. It's kinda hard to tune in back to study life. I'm sure those who are working will ask me to eat shit when I have to chance back to fully study. But I jus desire for doing something that I wanted to. Yet, I used to work hard to get back myself back to study life. I did alot of adjustment. Now I finally get myself back to study. Is FULLY study. But I miss my freedom life when i'm working. I do watever I wanted. Eventhough that time is kinda stress, but all is I myself responsible with that 1. Those pressure I can consult myself, cuz that time is myself choose to be what I wanted to be.

Yes. I dun deny, study back is also one of the reason I work hard. I promise some1 whenever is time to study back i'll be back. So now im back to study. But lately, the time is so tight. Tight till I dun have the chance to do what I want, what I desire b4 this. and the pressure I dun wan to stand anymore. I dun willing to take the stress, so refuse to have the stress.

Last time, all the pressure I dun take it as pressure, but as a motivation, cuz i've a mind set, tell myself, I choose to be this way. So when I work, I work happily. No matter how, Im happy. Even get scolded, get reject ideas n etc etc. Now study, that little pressure is so damn annoying. Refuse it so much so much.

I know I cant give up what I'm doing now(study). But I cant totally give up my work. What m I suppose to do? Very tired. I control myself not to think him also. But could he jus stop look for me. He interrupting my concentration. I used to rely on him alot. 2 years I rely on him so much, from colleague to friends, good friends, close friends, soul partner, then get along. Now suddenly ask me put down eveything, back to good friends. It's not hard, but need time. During this period, I so damn hope he dun look for me dun call me dun text me. Is very interrupting, Really. I'm trying to focus on what i'm doin. Everytime he suddenly pop up I really scare I get melted. becuz of this 2 years I quite rely on him, my leisure time almost with him, now losing to have such a soul mate, i'm so accustomed. 2 years habits suddenly have to take off. Teach me how to do it?

That's the end of us 3rd of march 2010

2010-03-04T13:56:00.006+08:00

Well finally ystd end up our relationship. It's miserable but still I need to go on with my life. So I decide to stand up. I duno whether it shud be glad or not, but still struggle for some time d. It shud be end like this. How it start, n how it end. Wish me luck. :)

Sick of grudge

2010-02-27T15:24:00.005+08:00

This cny is much more suffer than last year. Last year I need to bear all the suffer by myself due to he's not here. But this year, he's here n yet I need to bear the suffer all by myself again. The whole cny i never have to chance to meet him. He said i've been change since i came back from KK. Yes, I dont deny that once i touch down from kk i went out with friends, but he choose not to join us. My fault again o? Friends called few times for asking him to join, but he still reject. I myself also called him too, and he giving me craps to listen. I was so piss off but he hang my phone off 1st. I lagi geram, but who cares, so I din diu him n let him be. He said I spend my time with friends more than he do. Shit!! He shud know who I'm n what I'm. This all are craps. nothing to argue jus to find a topic to argue? Shit!

Then middle of late nite, he put his temper on me again. So what, I dun bother. Might be becuz of that, he revenge it back to me. He treated the same way to me. I started to spare out my time, n yet now he keeping say he's busy out there, even he dun have any date, he rather stay at home. I ask for meeting up few times, but he seems cant c cant feel n dun bother. So? Fuck off man!! U think who u r? I'm not the fish who always wanted the edible on ur bait.

泪

2010-02-07T21:26:00.005+08:00

一次又一次的让我躲起来，偷偷的做我平时不会怎样做的事:掉泪。眼泪对我而言不是难，可是也不容易。以前爸爸跟我说过，一个人的眼泪适合的时候可能是一种武器，可是不适合的时候是一种令人心烦又讨厌。小时候，只要爸爸一个眼神或是较重的话，眼眶就有泪在跳舞的时候，所以很小就学会掉泪要躲起来。怎么样都好都要到一个没有人的地方才释放出来。

现在长大了，对于躲起来掉泪不再陌生不再困难，把眼泪收起来也不再难了。我的眼泪本来就在08年的12月31号的时候不再流了，回头想，09整年来我真的没有掉过伤心的泪。可是眼泪就在整个一月常常都在掉，在房间自己一个人受着伤心，心痛，不甘心的心情流泪。我知道这很不健康，可是他就是一而再，再而三的让我掉泪。我没有跟他说什么事，也没有给他知道我心是怎么想。遭遇上次的教训，我知道我偷起来为这种人掉泪，我知道我中头奖了，还中的很准的那种。所以为了保护自己，我决定不去领奖。不要再次的被欺骗扎团来打扰我的生活。

泪:对我来说很贵，所以他不值得拥有我的泪。

Lately

2010-02-05T02:12:00.001+08:00

Lately alot of stuff happen. Jus duno how to put in words. I pass my bday with my fellow friends. That shud be a happy thing to me, jus there is some1 broke my bday up. Anyhow is not a big deal actually.. The worst is actually I very frustrated with my everything, no matter work, studies, people around me, n bla bla bla...

I'm not sure whether people around me realize that or not, but I myself realize that I've change alot since I get into a new environment of being one of them. But results telling me is, Im being a fool, being sarcastic, being unfriendly...

I have my own style of getting friendly to environment, but not the way they used to be. Yes, might be I'm new to this environment, i've tried my best to explain who, what, how, am I. but seems they don't choose to believe what I saw, I met, I know, I observe.

Friends told me, If ones understand, ones should know your effort on how much did you sacrifice to... I used to care about people's thought, feeling n etc. But someone taught me, I need to be selfish. Well I dunno whether being selfish is good or not. But someone taught me, at least you won't hurt yourself.

Lately I'm not who I use to be, someone taken me away where I dun wana go. Now I know everthing has been change, and never back to who I used to be. Now I know what I exactly have to do, in order to be there for you, whenever needed someone. I wanted to be the one I used to be, but the facts telling me everything that I jus being naive.

I've learned 1 thing from here, I learn to be mute, to be deft, to be blind. think that will easy my life dude.

期待Christmas的来临

2009-12-15T22:08:00.004+08:00

非常期待今年的圣诞
去年的圣诞我在工作
可是今年的圣诞终于
有自己的圣诞了：）

去年不好的圣诞回忆
今年要让好的回忆cover
去年圣诞非常忙
今年圣诞非常旺
我这个月赢了不少麻将钱
哈哈

认识了我这一群朋友这么久，
几乎每年都说一起出来玩，
缘分往往都作弄我和这群阿猪阿狗，
去年本来说好一起去新山过，
可是因工作在身跑不掉，
今年虽然不会再去新山，
可是能一起过已经很好了。

My 09 Christmas
is glad to have such a frens like u guys:)

工作有人探班真好

2009-12-05T12:48:00.004+08:00

最近都在跑Karen龔柯允的宣传。终于她station one的宣传在今晚在Rawang要到一段落了。跑她的宣传还蛮辛苦的，辛苦的来还有点不是很甘愿的感觉，不过怎么埋怨都好，我们还是用专业的态度“假人”来对待她的经纪人。哈哈！

话说回来，这么辛苦工作有时心情真的要平衡下，工作时找不到自己喜欢的，可有推动力的那一块真的很难过，昨天的宣传又出了状况，太多细节掉了，不过台上的表演还好看起来都ok。可是后台就乱到不可看的。我很pik chik的时候，既然有个suprise给了我，我的好兄弟探我班咧~嘻嘻！

这真的出乎我意料，没想到他会探我班咧。当时的我我开心到一个地步，也不懂怎么形容那个感觉，这个时候当然跑向他给了他个拥抱~~哇~~在我全眼前都是不顺的东东，突然有件让我开心起来的东东，当然也是个推我工作加把劲的事啦~~所以show来说，虽然已经非常的乱，可是还是因为有人探我班，而我的心情又没有这么pikchik了，是我发挥功力的时候啦~~~

最后签唱会虽然圆满结束，可是还有小瑕疵的啦~~function出状况不是第一次，不要太难看就好了。

G兄。吵架

2009-12-02T16:42:00.008+08:00

现在的我们就好像比一般的朋友的关系来的好，可是就是超越不了男女之间的关系。还说真的，我可能已把他当家人这么看了。所以我已经不能对我们之间有什么不必要的想法，也因为这样，看见你这样玩弄感情下去，我真的对他有点心酸心痛。那天他接我的时候，远远走着过来的样子，脑袋突然一闪十分多的画面。这些画面值得我严重的思考。

虽然他的牛脾气真的很牛，可是我已经习惯，看惯他发脾气脸臭臭的样子，可是以前的你无论怎么牛都好，他不会发在我身上，不会把我的手给甩开，我只要嗲他下，他就会很心软的。可是昨天，他发了我很大的脾气，很大很大的脾气，我知道这个脾气不是嗲下他不是安慰他下就可以搞定。

他在我们俩人的相处下发了我脾气，再去和他干姐回合，那时的我是十分的讨厌自己，我讨厌当时的我还要一副没事的样子照常与平时的我一样嬉皮笑脸，我在他的面前忍得非常的辛苦，不断的麻醉自己告诉自己把眼泪忍回家，最后我还是成功的把眼泪在他送到我回家被向着他的时候留下。不过这些眼泪不是为他而掉，是为了我自己而掉的眼泪。要在这样的时候委屈自己和他演这础戏。真的想和自己说一句我佩服你。我真的很佩服自己的眼泪这么听话，可不掉就不掉。这些功力不是这么容易练回来的~~哈哈

Bro, We All Luv U

2009-12-02T02:09:00.004+08:00

Alot of crap in my mind tonight. Jus duno how to release it n let those crap get out of my mind. Doesn't appreciate it, then jus fine. I'll jus mia in ur circle. If this is what you wan, then i'll jus do it becuz u wan me to. Gosh~ I duno since when i'll so care bout my this bro... Bro, what i can do to is jus set u free, and dun care too much bout ur stuff since u said u r matured enuff to handle all these. Well, if i cont i think im too much. Since u dun appreciate, then i'll jus dun do it. luv u bro.

9th Nov Gerard 21st Bday

2009-11-14T13:24:00.006+08:00

上个星期庆祝了他21岁的生日。因我遲到了，所以很多朋友都沒見到就拜拜了。去到的时候就剩下一斑一个星期见到N次的损友。哈哈！那天虽然剩下的朋友不多，可是我也很开心，能和他们一起渡多这个11月。整个11月对我自己本身很有意思，很多要好的朋友在这个月离开了们，到他们的世界，也有很多朋友在这个月生日。

话说回来生日派对当天，本来该是帮寿星打点的生日的rundown的，due to前一个晚上我和他n损友们打麻将打到天亮，从晚饭过后就打到第二天吃完早餐才回家的我们累的要死。Darling还说我的样子不能看的。哈哈哈～当天派对本小姐去到时候，连吃都7788 sapu完料。想想他的朋友有多恐怖，我们还order 120 pax for 100 pax的食物。因他不得空layan我们，有太多的亲戚在场所以我们一斑朋友到他的房间大大翻转。LOL >

sa sa rule the world~~

G兄弟

2009-11-14T11:45:00.003+08:00

都不晓得为什么男生这么喜欢玩不公开恋情，认识我这位兄弟这么久，不公开恋情我都看得多。自己又是单身，可是常常就是找个‘女友’然后就跟她偷偷摸摸的恋爱。没名没分的在一起，何时走在一起，何时分开都没这个肯定。我看到一个一个小绵羊送到他的嘴巴里，看到都心酸。一个个小绵羊就这样被牺牲。还好认识这位兄弟是因为工作的合作才认识，不然~~难以想象。

说起跟这个兄弟，跟他的身份其实还蛮特殊。因同事而认识，然后当了好朋友，说心事的好朋友，然后再了解，原来大家该在同事前就因该认识而且以有一面之言。一直看着我长大，看这我从小crew当leader，看着我为学业上挣扎，看着我感情上跌倒再扶我起来，也看着我乱水的生活。就在我需要肩膀的时候，无论他有多忙，他都会借给我。（不过他的工作的确常常都不忙）

很多不是这么懂我们的关系都以为我们是一对。说真的，跟他在一起根本就不用烦，像我这么不喜欢为自己的事做planning的人，他都一一帮我做主，不是我没主见，而是我真的懒得去想。只要跟他在一起，去那里，吃什么，怎么用时间，根本连想都不必要。就好像，几乎每次和他吃饭，坐下来看menu的时候，我把menu盖上，他都很自动的帮我点菜。我房间的家私都是他以了解我的品味，然后才跟我一起看家私。他带我去看家私时，整个房间的concept都想好了。只是proposed给我看我buy不buy。这么不用为我自己的事而操心的朋友哪里找？

这爱帮我做主的习惯，可能就是不适合当女生的男朋友。他的controlling的重，爱控制女友，嫉妒心很重，就连我平时跟其他男生比较好点，他都会放话给我听，更别说是自己的女人可是我又不是他女友，我怕什么？当个朋友，他真的没话可说的朋友，他是一个很好很好的朋友，不是只对我，对他自己的兄弟也真的很好，可是在他感情线上得要努力努力。死大男人的性格不改，他的女人都不好过。

这位好兄弟不晓得为什么我一点点地小动作他就知道我的事，可是我也不是不了解他。一眼就观察到他和我女朋友有东东啦。虽然第一次的观察只不过是猜测，所谓日久见人心，看见他对女生的细心就知道这个男人有下个target，aim住我女朋友料。上了我女友，有跟她来个不公开恋情，女生拉着我诉苦，我又何能不听呢？听了又不懂给什么意见，给的太多意见，又怕把他们有可能发展的关系rule up。做人难，做这个好友的兄弟更难。

分身术

2009-11-10T13:12:00.000+08:00

这几个月我很累，其实我因该习惯这样的生活可是还是会有点埋怨下。和以前一样，还是要功课工作两边顾。Partner到一个很好的人，就senang点；partner到一个mong sing sing的人就辛苦很多。Assignment有做等于没做，后来还是要自己做。工作那里更死，没有利益哪回帮你做？除非很好的交情，有交情归有交情，自己工作顾不来，还要多是顾别人的咩？接下来的这个12月，都不只道怎么安排？Pageant又要来了，干爹问了我几次要帮手吗，都退了他。感觉有点不孝tim~如有分身术就好，分下身工作都可以做的特别多 :)

Isn't the End

2009-11-04T18:12:00.007+08:00

Is not that easy for both of us walk till here. U need to consider alot, same to me. U like thriller but Im not. U like to hiding me up, but Im not. U like the way we are, but Im not. From time to time, day by day, the feeling of leaving is stronger n stronger. Especially whenever I saw something that I not suppose to know regarding u both. Everytime I saw all this, the jeously in me, stronger n stronger. Instead of abusing myself, I rather choose to let go. After letting go, I hope v still could back to the days v used to be, as close as b4 this but not like now.

地下情

2009-09-15T16:09:00.005+08:00

地下情有点玩腻了，

现在好像为了配合你而去做的一件事。

感觉好像有点不对料~~

该怎么从新调整这份感觉呢？

低调有带点高调的地下情，

对我来说已经到了已不再如当初了。

为什么

2009-08-29T04:20:00.002+08:00

为什么是人都会做些犯贱的行为？

为什么要一脚踏两船？

为什么已知道对方有女友还要把头钻进去？

为什么明明已知道，还要装傻当作什么事都没发生？

为什么要把决定权让给他？

为什么把感情弄得这么复杂?

为什么不好好珍惜眼前的幸福而跑去破坏人家？

为什么能让第三者介入你们的感情？

为什么要当第三者？

为什么这么贱已有女人还要到外面找一个？

为什么? 为什么？为什么？

死

2009-08-07T02:18:00.003+08:00

大家做工的价值观不一样，她就是看$$分上而工作，而我是要build自己的creditbility和reputation，不要破坏自己的名字。当然也有看$$的分上啦~ 可是跟她当伙伴真的oh blood~没有责任感，敢敢不接电话，还要说骗话给我看穿，说穿了她还要死撑，呈不到就认sui lui~
作任何事都怕损失~怕自己损失些什么，就答应了人家的事，看到不对劲也不去想办法解决，等麻烦来last min都不会去解决~

敢敢还有这么多promoter还没找到，既然还跑去看戏~~！！！！！妈的！！！现在当我是什么？我是付你薪水那个咧~还是我平时对你太好你根本不怕我，就算麻烦来到你已知道我会跟你解决？妈的！！我付你薪水是要你帮我的咧~不是要我自己想办法解决问题的！！！！吐血！！
啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊啊！！！！！
认识了这么多年，你那些懒散的行为我已无话可说~~现在连工作你都要给我看你懒散的一面！！
真有你的！！！！！！！！受够了你！！！！！！！！！！去找你爸吧~~~

服装店开张咧

2009-08-06T00:55:00.006+08:00

繁彬的服装店开张了，没错就是My Fm的DJ曾繁彬的服装店开张了，该说再次的开张了~~他的店开张我都不晓得为什么会这么高兴，更不懂为什么这么替他高兴。很奇怪~无论怎样，他的服装店再次的开张该说是件喜事，所以要恭喜恭喜他乜~~~嘻嘻！！得空就多多逛下他的服装店咯~~ Sg Wang 6楼， December。路过那里不妨进去逗留几秒钟咯~~ :)

我很像广告的女主角？哈哈

2009-08-05T12:26:00.004+08:00

Yomeishu的广告很好笑~说一位女生要搭大马的小红，每个司机看到这位女生都赶快逃走。
镜头转换到女生那~原来那位女生憔悴到很想只鬼~~~哈哈哈！
我看到这篇广告，笑到肚子都痛！！
妈妈就笑回我，你很快就到那儿地不了~~
又给她酸了一下！爸爸看见，还偷笑了一下！！哈哈

Funniest thing happen at penang trip

2009-07-27T01:08:00.009+08:00

Last weekend, I spend my sunday for outstation. However, on that day I drop by at Penang for work. Nth much bout my work anyway, but company offer us to stay at G hotel which is a 5 star hotel... Not bad, what else I shud say. Actually that night after work we had our heavy dinner at Perai, erm... shud says onli me and evon had a very full dinner, cuz evon curi curi bring me go another hawker stall to eat whenelse the others sitting at the few stalls away frm us and waiting us balik...C~ evon manja me d~~ lol...

After makan, evon friend brought us to Auto-City, that place I feel comfortable... But onli at night, if you go in the afternoon, there is Super Hot!!! NO SHADE at all where you can run away from the hot sun....

Anyway, after visitation at Auto-City, we went back and take our rest and get ourself clean... Then after my bubbles bath, Ah Hong says he very very very hungry and want to take supper, at the meanwhile same to Andrew oso... But that was ady 2something, all nearby hawker stalls sudah tutup pun... So we went to 24 hours de McD and grab our supper, although Im not very hungry, but if I dun accompany Andrew and Ah hong, there is onli 2 feller pigi beli supper, kesian they all so I sacrifice my facial time and accompany them... LOL (actually I geh po aje). At 1st, dah beli supper suppose balik bilik 1, then Andrew suggest take supper at the so call the "beach" which onli in front of the hotel onli~~ let him zha dou!! they call it dirty beach~~ lol... sambil makan, sambil bersembang... What a nice time~~ :)

Then here come the classic scene~~ LOL... after some chat, Andrew macam saw a "BIRD" on the so call the "beach", he keep on ask us whether that was a bird or wat... cuz there is too dark to c... Keep on ask n ask n ask n ask n ask n ask~~ till Ah hong says, Ok~! I walk down n help you c.... at 1st Andrew oso cakap no need d... But that Ah Hong stand his own right, gila d n step down to the "beach" Who knows, is MUD~~LOL!!! He nearly sink into the mud and couldnt get back to step on the rock~~ hahahahaha...When he manage to climb back, his legs all kena mud... he walk down with his shoes, and his shoes all kena mud gao gao tim~~ I laugh like an idiot in the middle of the night...all becuz of him~~!!! :)

All his legs in full of mud, we call it mud mask~~ haha! With that "mask" he couldnt walk into the hotel just like that, then I went to the reception and get 3 bottles of MINERAL water to wash his leg, , ( after masking, rinse with mineral water,haha ). He's so proud with his shoes~~ We kena tease that tapau McD become tapau mud shoe back~ Funny rite?? McD all are in the stomach d, but back with mud shoes in the McD bag...

The next morning is the day we have to leave Penang, but Ah hong's mud shoes haven dry after he had spend some time to wash them on the day b4... shoe haven dry, wat to do?? So he have to wear the hotel slipper lo... hahahaa.. too bad andrew tak bawah and extra shoes or slipper, my sandal he coundnt wear then too bad lar~~~ HAHAHAHAHAHA

anna幸福，你们也要幸福

2009-07-24T01:11:00.007+08:00

上星期六，放弃了去太平的宣传工作不做为了那天的聚会。也就为了这一家人一起吃喝玩乐的样子，这也是一小部分罢了。anna姐的生日有谁不敢去，就算死都要去~~ lol。。今年她还特地在Eastin Hotel租了间Suite来当这次的聚会的地点。 ^^
Wendy和Anna

Anna和她身边重要的一个

看见你们这几对幸福我也觉得很幸福~

看32的男友斯斯文文的，还几会酸人下~~XD

Yun的男友就死命的喝~~哈哈（他该给我的38吓倒下）

ps:其实还有好几对都带了另一半，有点懒的PO上去~~哈哈

Flash back the photos we used to capture. really recall alots my memories, from every corner, every spot, every about, there are some stories left behind..Honestly, I dun really have much time to hang up with them,not all becuz im too busy, might says, dun have the real faith to hang around most of the time,cuz time owis tak ngam~ that's why every year anna and sara b'day i will try my best to spare out the time for their b'day celebration... Cuz this is the onli time that i spare out... And this is also the reason, I give up my job to Perak and show up at their party...

我也很幸福

2009-07-24T00:56:00.008+08:00

谢谢你们，因为你们的爱我觉得很幸福，就算塔下来我也真的觉得很幸福。断断续续工作了这么久，遇见不少老板，遇见不少队长，遇见不少朋友，也交了不少朋友，一起吃喝玩乐，一起哈啦。

昨晚宣传感觉有点松口气，可是也有点依依不舍的感觉，最后一天的宣传在后台不小心自己难过了起来，这个表情不晓得加峻看见没。

这一年来，我感觉自己很幸运，虽然得到我这一年来的工作经验，工作娱乐，工作享受，都有要付出的代价，所谓: 有得必有失，有失必有得。这一年不止得到的工作经验，工作玩乐，而且还得到身边人的疼爱。首先有我学姐Denise，然后有我的老板娘Irene，然后有我的干爹和干妈，然后有我的同事Gerard，Nick，Andrew，Kay，Yaw，Hong，Antz，Bonnie，Brian，KennyLai，Su ping姐，雪萍姐，还有在Outstation的同事，个个都很疼我，有什么事都会帮我忙，太Kuli的工作都不太让我做，(只是有时自己犯贱 XD)

最后我也感恩我这次宣传的队长Evon，虽然脾气坏了点，不过只是工作时间的脾气难顶一点，其实她还真的很疼我，疼到连Andrew和Antz在吃我的醋，常算我又说我是Evon的得力助手，可是我说真的我什么忙也没有很帮到，我只是会做戏罢了~~哈哈哈哈！

话说回来，除了他们的疼爱，我本人觉得妈妈对我的爱真的不可不说，虽然我的觉定她一直在埋怨，可是也因为她的爱才有我现在这样坚定。

当然也少不了我两位好姐妹，Jazly和Michelle啦(他们比较喜欢别人这样叫他们^^)~~有人说：人生得一个知己，死已无憾，更何况我有两位这么多。^^ 希望这两姐妹快点找到自己真正的幸福，他们家人不知道我在交往的事还以为我和他们的女儿是玩同性恋。Sigh，希望他们就快点找个嘛~不用一直听见家人念各不停，念了她们又跟我诉苦。又不是没人追，眼光就别放这么高嘛~~哈哈哈！！Dream man永远和现实有差别的！！这句是我同事跟我说过的，现在再弹回给他们用！ XD

它又回来找我料

2009-07-21T21:15:00.003+08:00

最近老人痴呆症又发作料～～

不记得大姐的生日，

不记得已是duedate交学费，

害我又要多付overduedate的钱，

不记得我哪天该回家料，

还有一件事就是既然差点忘了今天答应了人家我要代班啊～

差点放了人家飞机Tim。

还好昨晚临睡前recall到我未做的事。

我的记忆力退化料～快给我补一补！！^^

终于完毕

2009-07-20T23:28:00.003+08:00

终于宣传活动已完毕（不敢用完美来形容），也刚从Penang会来，终于松了一口气去，哈哈！从星期5晚上就玩通宵，第二天的晚上也是另一位朋友生日，又聊天聊通宵，虽然是通宵可是还是几喜欢这样的感觉，不出声听八卦~~哈哈！因好友的生日就没有跟team到taiping和kurau这两场的宣传。本来自己也不用这么犯贱7早8早就要爬起来去Penang，因为Penang那场已不用这么多人工作，也是最后一场的宣传活动，可是就是自己好玩，很想凑热闹！！嘻嘻！

虽然错过了在Kurau那场，听说那场很有气氛，有美女，又Crowded~而且那里的学生还跟宣传主角跳了一小段贴身辣舞~哎哟！这么high的气氛既然没有我在场~！:( 想回头，如果真的跟了Team去了Taiping和Kurau，我就没有这次的机会见我老同学了。哈哈哈哈~诉说，有得必有失~嘻嘻！

这次就写到这里，明天又要上班！

Some Flash Back

2009-07-18T11:36:00.005+08:00

Yesterday was Sara 20th Birthday, and this makes me recall alot of memories when we were still studying high school... Alot of old friends... As I owis say, ones get older, ones changes will be make... Duno why suddenly open up my friendster and saw this slide which I upload just after we graduate from high school... It's a WOW to me... from photos, really can c how we grow... LOL

@Tun Aminah狂疯的一晚

2009-07-15T21:43:00.006+08:00

Look at them~so call the 'xing fu' Group photo with the CMG's N Station 1'sThe Fans N CMG'sA very memorable night with they all, when I look back to these photos, tears has rolling around my eyes...after this project will it be another second chance bring us back together?? N when will it be??? Miss u guys... c ya @ cocobanana~~ ;)

到Kelantan宣传，做的最错的一件事

2009-07-15T15:51:00.004+08:00

这次跟着Evon（我的leader）跑了这么多场的宣传，领悟到很多东西。跑宣传和我平时做选美的event有很大的不同。也可能大家的要求都比一样，我做选美的时候，很多事都很拘谨，每分每秒都要很Alert，一出错就会把整个节目搞垮，尤其是Final当天。也因Final当天是直播，必须录下来，所以一分一秒的rundown都非常非常重要。

至于做宣传虽然比较轻松，比较好玩，可是也有我本人觉得不是很pro的地方，譬如说，很多地方budget没有算得很好，往往都overbudget然后为了盖budget必须自己从钱包出钱。还有安排的住宿只有2 star，3star的旅店，你说有知名度的艺人会住下来吗？我是他，我也赶快安排飞机会家啦~

还有这次跟宣传组的人只有Evon(我的Leader)，Taki(化妆师), 繁彬(主持人), 雪萍(助力),苏平(助力),还有两位歌手，就只有我们8个人。从我们公司的人就只有我和Evon，所以很多很多事都是我们这里安排，还有当地的负责人。一组8个人，说多也不是很多，说少也真的不少，不过常常就一桌围着一起吃饭。说到吃饭，在吃饭时我顶了我们Taki哥一句话，我到现在还耿耿于怀这件事，我还想很对不起他，对他来说不是什么大件事啦，可是对我来说，好像过分了点，好像有点不尊重他，当时的我一定是玩疯了（那场的宣传很成功的完成），说话有点没经过大脑就说。虽然平时都有说有笑，可是大多与都是给他们酸，很少会回嘴，因为连Evon都不怎么得罪Taki他们。

我那天晚上一定是人来疯，不懂sot掉还是什么，Taki哥其实他用很客气的语气请我帮他倒茶，因为当时的我倒着茶，就这个时候，我顶他说，自己倒啦~那一刻全桌的人傻眼，没想到我会顶嘴勒～而我自己说出口后，也立刻想找洞躲啊～我是鬼上身吗？？既然得罪我们的Taki哥～我为了泥补我的说错话，我立刻倒茶给他，可是这个时候，Taki哥连杯子都收起来料～我还把他的IPhone掉在地上，真的有Clumsy到咯～很对不起他，很对不起他～事后我有很他道歉啦，可是不懂他会不会介意。我在后台听见太多人家的坏话了，所以我懂他们的patern是什么。也因为这样，我一直都不敢回嘴就是这样，这次口快说了不该说的话，真的有失礼到咯。我本人觉得还带点没大没小，不尊重前辈的感觉。我可以要求给个面具我吗？

After work, sure suen bin go lepak~

2009-07-06T22:20:00.005+08:00

After The Promo Tour, of course we wont forget to enjoy enjoy ourselves...The next day, once dah makan "breakfast", cuz i slept till 11something is not mistaken..then we go shop shop n visit cameron... dun forget to play around huh~~ hehehe He's The Driver That I said and Named ANDREW....

Those Who Know Nic...Do Not Hesitate Anything, He really NIC number 2.. XDGot Moony Effect mou?? haha

The Best Team For CMG...邂逅？What's That Means? I really duno~~ =pThis is 名副其实“花痴”What The F*** Is This Driver Doin?

That day really a tiring day, full whole journey no sleep b4, yet reach home was at night...

But it's COOL!! XD

Do You Know That......?

2009-07-06T19:12:00.004+08:00

Do You That There Is A Missing Case At Cameron Highland Jungle Before? Untill Now Is Still An Unsolve Mystery Story Happen In Cameron Highland. I heard from the residents, that place untill now no1 dare to go... (but i've no according prove la) Honestly, this Jim Thompson is a good looking guy, dun stare on the picture too much, it will frightened you... I need to end my PO fast... BYE!!

活动赶场

2009-07-01T22:38:00.010+08:00

这几天都在赶场真的有累到咯~不是我在投诉什么，这样一直outstation说实在的其实还几累下。不过我喜欢！！哈哈！！犯贱~~lol。从25号那天帮人代班第二天早上就得出发跑宣传了。一大清早就要开车料~眼睛都还没开完就要去meet我的同事。去到office还要当苦力搬东东，一早就要对这脸臭掉的同事们，我都还来不及知道发生什么事，就要听人家诉苦了几十分钟酱，头脑都还没清醒，给个这么高的东东我量，当时又下到咯。后来才知道，老板要省钱，硬要把全部东东塞到车里，原来是这样所以车的主人超级生气，他的车既然当了货车，车里还要载3个人。车有重到咯。难怪Andrew会生气地啦，毕竟那是他的老婆。

首先星期六的第一站就是Kuantan的Kuantan Parade。虽然车程不是非常久啦~因为赶场的关系，所以Andrew司机加快速度，不过我有点可怜他的老婆，因为连我坐在它肚子里都觉得超辛苦。去到目的地，有吓到咯，做好所有的arrangement，既然只有几个人影在等罢料~ 可怜的artist，要延迟活动不是因为artist迟来，而是要等fans，要等人潮，可怜到要在后台延迟活动。
活动延迟了大半个小时才开始，人潮只不过好了一点点。Sigh，然后现场卖专辑只有X罢料！上台获取签名真的有可怜到咯，一两下就搞定料！XD

这场过后，同一天的晚上在Mentakab，我们又要加速去到目的地。还好那晚的活动还几多人下，不过sound system我是觉得还几烂下，所以artist唱的时候好像不如平时的Quality酱。还好这些还骗得料小妹妹小弟弟，当场的来宾都很小，非常小，都是中学和小学生，大多于是小学生，看到大家这么热情对Artist我自己本人觉得好好笑，也不懂为什么。就一股莫名其妙的感觉可是又觉得很可笑。

Mentakab完毕后，第二天的早上因我有工作在身该会KL的料，而我的同事们就得跟Artist到Cameron Highland处理那场活动。可是后来因不用赶回KL料，又给我同事说服留下来（其实是自己好玩想留下来的XD）就这样我也跟着上Cameron Highland，从Mentakab到Cameron真的有够远的，坐到屁股都扁去料...有不能睡哦，因为坐在后面的同事睡到猪酱，为了陪Andrew司机，所以就一直跟他说话，一直唱歌。我和Andrew刚刚认识第二天，真的没有什么话题可说，坐在车头的我有点被考到咯！旅途我说了很多冷笑话，有给他猜了很多谜语，多到我自己都觉得我在语无伦次料~说鬼故事既然还吓不倒他，而且说完后还有点冷。 Haiz~ 哈哈然后我就自己笑起来，我觉得我很可悲兼可笑。哈哈哈

跑完Cameron后，第二天我们就下山料~回到KL已是晚上了，回到家看见自己的床，感觉幸福的呢~~嘻嘻！车上就只有我和Andrew，我另一个同事跟了我学姐的车，所以我又要陪太子不能做猪，不过这次比上次陪他驾车比较好点，起码有点话题可聊也有百听未焉的《迷魂阵》《爱来的刚好》《暗恋》这3首歌。主唱唱了N次，我也听了N次暂时还没焉啦。还在车上听《迷魂阵》听到跳起舞来，所以几过瘾下~XD

回到家，冲个凉就赖在床上了，这么久的旅途我又是不能睡觉的一个。睡前心想了一下，“明天没有活动，我可以比较晚起身”想着想着看看日期，才发现我答应人家凌晨要看场地！天未亮又要跑起来料！然后连续这么多天我没有迟起身的机会，有够为难我咯。这么懒的我，没得睡有考到我咯！就这样熬到今天才等到明天没有工作可以休息下~~hohohoho

台上台下的你我

2009-06-30T01:39:00.005+08:00

很享受你站在台上拿麦克风的样子，然后你露出一副你忙你的，而我就在台下我忙我的的样子。大家先做好本分。

为你处理所有的活动里的必备，觉得是我工作时最大的推动力。只要一个眼神，不必多说，不必解释太多，就真的觉得这一切都是心满意足的了。最喜欢的时刻就是做soundcheck的时候，因为这个时候我肯定不会在console，不过就是这样我能够远远看着你认真地调音认真地rehearsal。

这也是为什么我这么享受我工作的原因，因工作而找到娱乐的关系，因为这些所以才有这样的我。XD

代班当B.A.

2009-06-26T22:40:00.006+08:00

今天帮我的亲爱的代班在TimesSquare的Metrojaya当Beauty Advisor。很奇怪吧~因为不是我本行~哈哈！开完笑~~我除了当粗工没作过，我想我什么都有当过。（死32，别想歪。小声跟你说，shh~你知我知就好 ><）区区一个B.A.难得到我吗~~哈哈哈！反正今天课后没工作，我亲爱的Pui san有急事，所以我才发出下我仁慈的一面吧！LOL 对产品的Knowledge来来去去都是一样，3dok屁~！哈哈哈虽然我只帮她代5个小时，可是从4点到9点这个时间，我真的超级闲！闲到我可以做我私人的功课，闲到我可以按计算机我这个月赚到多少，又可以安排下没上班可做的事~甚至可以帮隔壁counter包Hamper。时间还有剩乜~~时间多到一个极限，都不知道还可以做什么。我连自己的双手都敷了counter的tester，帮双手做了‘面膜’。哈哈！这些工作那里找？ ><

检点下

2009-06-26T00:39:00.004+08:00

今晚跟几个多久没见的朋友去了喝茶，还是一样的坐在一起一定说人家的是非，还几多38下。>< 只要音乐停下就听见我们的声音，其实真的几丢脸下。隔壁座子的人一定觉得我们很讨厌~如果我是隔壁座的人，我一定很讨厌小声说大声笑的人，不过对于这么久没见的朋友没办法啦，我控制不到他们，所以还是由他们一起38下咯。哈哈！临走前，遇见了我Pageant时的选手，Queenzy。她只有150cm哦~可是我一万个佩服她~她穿5，6寸的根好像吃便饭酱。今晚偶然的遇见对方还是少不了我们的打招呼方法，就是左脸碰下，右脸碰下的礼仪~~哈哈这次还加了大大的拥抱，因为实在太久没见了，有一年的距离吧~给完拥抱后，她第一句既然说：“Eugenia，你憔悴很多勒！”哎哟哟~她已不是第一个这么说我了~~ 那天我见我姐妹，她也说我老了~ 虽然不说我也懂啦，看镜子，看照片都看得出~ 妈还说我继续这样，就快比我姐还要老~~ Lol

我要检点料，检点不要这么38，检点我要照顾下自己料~~ =p
我还未到21咧~~~~T.T

2009-06-25T01:39:00.004+08:00

不晓得是人奇怪还是我奇怪。我很常会做的一件事就是常常想回去年或是前年还是在早年的今天这个日子这个时候我在幹嘛。或是去到一些地方又想回我上一次来这里是几时，在做什么，抱着怎样的心情等等。

今天的我，傍晚的时候有个Traning去到了wisma genting那里。整个Training完了后都已是9点多快要10点了。因要约了一个很重要的人在imbi那里，所以选了BTS的starbucks。因那人迟到了，所以就一个人静下来的叫了一杯Earl Grey来喝顺便让大脑休息一下就不点espresso了。p/s:不然晚上又睡不着又煲电话到天亮料~~XD
BTS的starbucks共有3间，我常去的就是borders里的那间，得空如果你们有去到那里顺便可以看看我在里面吗，我很常会在那里待。附近戏院那间，我肯定不会去，因为实在太多人passby了，人来人往的，看到都头痛。至于低楼那间呢，偶尔也会去下，就在我要待在BTS时不过又超过广场打烊的时间，那我就会在那里发下呆咯...

上一次来这里的时候，也是做完Training，同一时间，同一个地点，等着同一个，星八的服务生还是一样，点了一样的饮料，坐回一样的位子，还是一样伤风到不得了，简直是历史重演啊~只不过我今天抱着的心情完全不一样！！虽然离上次不久，只有区区的8个月时间，可是这8个月改变了不少。

上次的心情虽然伤风就快把我杀死，可是我还是觉得超幸福+快乐+满足，除了这些其实还带点无奈（因为约的人迟到，自己也伤风）还有很疲倦。不过这次反差太多了，这次的是无奈偏高，疲倦偏高，压力也往上升，虽然这些听起来不是很好，不过现在的我至少幸福快乐和满足这一块些还有，未被压过去还有在。只不过的是，不同的角度代替了不见的那块。

“满足”是我现在工作行程表是满的，是没有空的，就算是空的，那也是我该休息的时候。幸福虽然少了一小块，不过家人，姐妹们，还有兄弟们给我的幸福都不输给不见的那一小块。快乐，我是快乐的因为我有这么好的姐妹陶，也有一班随声随到的兄弟，还有还有的是一个虽然不是很赞成我做的事，可是也没有很强烈的反对我想法的妈妈。>,<

不晓得你们会不会去到某个地方，或是在某个时间想回你之间的今天这个日子，这个时候，这一分，这一秒，你和谁度过，或是抱着怎样的心度过呢？

最麻烦就是.... T.T

2009-06-23T23:45:00.005+08:00

全世界最麻烦的新娘就是我姐啦~为什么要限定姐妹们穿红色的小礼服。妈的！！我N年前就没有在穿Dress了。还不给我穿legging或是stoking！！哟哟哟哟！！我二姐她好命，既然逃走免穿dress的宿命。Sigh~~为什么？为什么？为什么她的婚礼只有我在，为什么二姐她必须在这个时候出国念书？为什么是我来顶二姐的命运？二姐就好咯，这样就有借口了。如果二姐在的话，我不肯穿裙，起码二姐肯定是撑我的，因为二姐比我不穿裙的毛病更严重。我只不穿dress，bottom skirt我还穿。可是二姐连裙子都不碰的人，要她穿dress就难咯~~如果二姐在，这样我们亲妹妹例外那不是很好咯。最坏的事，大姐婚礼，二姐没分参与，就算二姐肯帮我出头，大姐的想法也不会有所改变。因为我对大姐说服力的八仙率是等于0。

大姐也是地，明知道我要倒茶给她的时候是要跪下的，既然还要人家穿dress。哎~~算啦！算是她结婚我为她做最后的一件事。在婚里穿dress是我最大的尺度。因为我参加婚礼从来都不穿dress的！！！除了很小很小妈妈帮我选衣服的时候啦~~><

真的头痛！！！！

Sis Engagement

2009-06-22T01:35:00.004+08:00

Im sure alot of my friends never met my eldest sis b4... Now it's time for u guys see her...Dont think she's modeling or wat... she still not qualified lagi~~ lol... Last saturday afternoon was her engagement... Finally~~~~~~ thanks god!!!! My sis boleh kahwin~~!!! FINALLY~~~~ she got to sign that stupid paper~~~~~~~ lol N all these pretty girls are my sis high school friends... Her best friend (the 1 with orange dress) she is a wife for a doctor...her character macam my sis... that's y both boleh berkawan... onething, others will think they both are sisters... is call 'chuen' . They both come from same school same class, when they are still schooling owis chuen those student who are weak than them...anyway, it's none of my business... And the lady with jeans, I prefer... Onething she's friendly, she owis have a smile on her face... this is not the point, the point is I more respect her, cuz she's the most brilliant among them...Last time, she's a nerd... lol Top student but she never look down towards to others classmates... This is why I prefer her... ^^ And this, I think i dun have to say who's the hack he is, sure u guys will noe... that's rite~ he is!! I din noe he actually so short~~ lol... cuz that day I stand beside only I noe he only slightly taller than me~~ hahaha...plus that day im not wearing any heels... Im wearing sports shoe man!!! n u can c, my sis wearing high heels.. n also slightly shorter than him... then back home measure our height, I just noe that Im slightly taller than my sis... I very short only leh~~ my goodness~~lol

LOL... I really wanna laugh like shit on this photo... Just duno why... hahahahaha... one MORE thing~~ I just duno why everybody say I look like my eldest sis~~ My sis friend saw me 1st thing they say, wa... u semacam yvonne lar... (Kill me) PLZ~~~ I dun look like her, ok?? Please,please,please... stop saying I look like!!!!!! Sick of it!!! I think I look like my elder sis than the eldest one lor~~ Sigh.... or might says... 3 of us oso doesn't look alike~~ yeah~~! hahaha (P:S actually 3 of us oso dun like ppl say we look alike, especially me) hehehehe

Man with the hand bouquet??? lol (p:s not suppose my sis hold it de meh??)

Visit Calvin

2009-06-17T23:26:00.005+08:00

星期天的晚上，我去了Calvin家拜访他们一家人。从Calvin分手那天我就没有再去他的家了，他的家从婚前，婚后都有很大的改变。婚前还有很多我在他家留下的痕迹，婚后就多了太太还有小宝宝的东东。宝宝还没生就这么可爱的玩具在等他了，真幸福！

去年12 月头我在考试中所以无法参加他的婚礼，缺席是件遗憾的事。可是他们的幸福我真的感受到，那天在他们家看了很多照片，他们交往时旅行的照啦，婚纱照啦等等。无意也看见我和Calvin交往时的照片。他既然把我分手时所还给他的一切还保留着。看到这些我应该笑得出来吗？我是真的笑出来啦，因为以前的我们真的很笨！

以前的事，还好Tracy都看得很开，没有太介意。不过女人多多少少都会介意，只是没有太明显的反应。有件事真的去到他们家才发觉这一对真的很可爱。Tracy前男友我都认识，偶然下才发觉原来我同事是Tracy的前男友。在她的家，我看见Tracy和我同事的照片。可是我只是ei了一下，才知道原来我认识的。可是没有跟Tracy说什么，我想关系都是别拉太多，不然会很复杂。

昨天我告诉我姐妹，我看见Calvin有多幸福，他们立刻问了我一句，那你有没有想找个伴稳定下来。我郑重的告诉大家，对不起～我一直都抱着玩的心态，以前是，以后不懂，不过至少现在的我确定跟你们说我还是，没有想稳定下来！！摆脱～我还年轻啊！！先赚个够先，upgrade下自己，我从中学到现在有个梦想还没实现，实现了再说。等我再过多几年吧～也许有人会令我改变想法吧～

看见Calvin如此的幸福，我想当初决定分手是对的。浪子也有回头的一天，看见这个28岁的浪子现在这么会为老婆想，我就知道他比以前成熟很多很多。我期待喝宝宝的满月酒呢～

没有他就没有会这样的我

2009-06-12T23:56:00.009+08:00

今天让我有机会再次碰回那组乐器真的让我想回以前读着中学时候和Calvin玩音乐的时间。

每个星期天，补习班下课后Calvin都会在补习中心楼下接我下课去到Studio。跟阿米，Benedict，强哥，和他一起在Studio都会逗留好几个小时。虽然很多时候我都在旁边听，可是还真的几享受一下。^^有时吵架，有时Jam到不肯收手，有时又很得意，真的喜怒哀乐都在那里。
还记得我半个师傅鼓手阿Ben他常常敲我的头，每次都会叫我放松来打鼓，不要紧张，容易紧张的我就会脚斗。最好笑的就是斗倒连踩pedal都听到脚是在斗的。

慢慢适应和他们一起Jam歌之后脚就没有这么会乱斗了。后来Ben哥他也慢慢的让我和Calvin他们一起Jam歌了。一阵组Jam歌的感觉真的非常非常非常的棒。我到现在还记得当初那份感觉。血液都澎湃起来。

现在每个当中的他们都当了爸爸妈妈，最年轻的Calvin在去年成功娶下老婆。宣布要结婚有几分惊讶，他和女友交往不到一年就说要婚了。也不能怪他啦，跟他在一起的时候，也有常常听见家人吹婚的事了，找到一个他觉得相信的过又有安全感的女生还不求婚还等什么啊~

不晓得几时你们这组几时再会凑在一起呢？好怀念那时每个都当我是妹妹这样看，教我很多东西。Calvin就当爸爸了，我就当了他女儿的干妈~不过还好就是没有什么结拜的礼仪。自己都还顾不dim，还要多个干女儿，夸张了吧~我还小，才不要多4，5年后有个小孩叫我干妈咧~说实在的是有点geli到咯~

不可能有交叉的地平线

2009-06-11T23:29:00.002+08:00

两道地平线是不会有交叉的时候，
所以别再相信有的没的。
专主自己该做的事先吧~

白天永远不懂夜的黑，
当XX是白天时XX就是夜黑。
所以我们只有交替没有交换的时候。

这些都是有人教会我的哲理。
现在我把它贴用在你身上，
别再外面混这么多，
她的心早就空着让你住进去了。

Enjoy this kind of time

2009-06-10T02:15:00.005+08:00

Today my time feel so fulfilled... This morning I have a function @ KLCC, but b4 it starts, I went Kino look up some books, end up the books Im looking for dah habis n have to wait for the next... sigh... anyway, I manage to grab some books to read up for my spare time in between the preparation... Guess wat book i got to read. The story that the author is portraying the criminal minded n also their background what bring them to commit crime, Cool rite?? Haha...This book really manage to get my eyes on page by page.... Wonderful time owis couldn't enjoy too long, that's why I got to back to work while onli I read a small part of the book....

After the function is being held, then I look for my loves one to accompany me... She's my best friend ever, even she's so so so forgetful, owis forget evithing I used to tell her, but she's owis being my best friend I ever have...

Around dinner time I went back home to have my homie cooking from my sis with my family n my auntie n my little cousin sis from JB.... At 1st I tot Im gonna end my day with my family members with sitting around watching TV n chit chatting... But then, DH call up n ask me for yamcha nearby my hse... Luckily I balik rumah 2day, If not he have to go jauh jauh look for me to yamcha...

Then we end our day with a basketball match, cuz after yamcha, DH got a call n offer him for basketball game...so basically, my team have lose for the match... haha... aiyo! I neva ever touch Basketball since I graduate frm my high school... It's so lousy, seems like back to the 1st time I play basketball when I was in primary sch... Gosh~~~

Sunday

2009-06-01T19:11:00.001+08:00

yeah! 昨天终于呆在Boutique的最后一天了。在那里虽然看见了不少贵公子，可是要我呆在那里工作真的拿掉我的命吧~时间真的过得非常无聊...工作时间虽然比平时缩短了几个小时，工作量真的不大，可是要我工作量不大又夺走我这么多个小时，我真的觉得很无聊啊~说到时间，昨天的时间可过得真快啊~连午饭都不察觉过了，就到下班时间了，还吓到一下。6点下班的我预约了时间到做treatment。做完treatment，简直是快乐！这时间当然去wet下。说wet也没有真的wet得很厉害，毕竟为了对自己好点，所以还是去放松一下听下音乐去。

朋友约了去wangsa maju听音乐wor~说有什么东东活动。我想看下也无妨，所以二话不说就答应咯。去到心情还好，谁知猪朋狗友都还没看见就看到不应该遇见的人。都说明不想遇见，也当然不想让他看见我啦。这时候的我心里还念着“他看不到我，他看不到我”的逃走现场。辛好这招真的过得了关。这因这样我就爽约没有跟猪朋狗友哈拉咯。

不过没有因此这样就过了我的星期天，为了你扑我没得听音乐又没得跟他们吹水，所以我坚持我星期天不能这么结束。虽然后来节目不是很精彩，可是至少我终于见到我的好姐妹了。接她在Pavillion下班后，我们去打保龄球！这么一打才发觉我超旧没打保龄球了，而且退步超多的。

球打完后就回家啦~ 回到家就该休息了嘛~ 不过觉得还早的我就开开电脑咯。昨晚我既然打开电脑，然后看看下接下来的比赛选手的Profile不小心趴在桌上睡着了。一直到今早，也不知哪个勇士把我滚回进房间。睡醒后都不知道谁叫我回房间。哈哈...想起来真的“可悲”。哈哈

我自己来

2009-05-25T01:14:00.004+08:00

今晚有些人事物困扰着我，这些事我已逃避了一段时间，此终我还是要面对它。有时真的不是我不想分享我的哀悲，而是我不想告诉你们后增加你们的烦恼。我此终觉得每个人都有自己的烦恼，我只不过觉得这件事你们是帮不了的所以选者不说。

我另可选一个不认识的人理我都不想你们看见我失控的样子因为这件事真的对我而言很重大。到最后我选者han fong陪我聊了一阵子。虽然他也不懂事情的真相，可是听他的笑话也让我的心情好过点。

你们不要逼我到底是什么事了好吗？我真的会忍不住地把它掉下来的，它出现会让我更脆弱。到时候的我真的看不得人了。

放心我很快就搞掂这件事，然后再次看见我

經典！

2009-05-19T19:58:00.004+08:00

不晓得的为什么突然这么有情趣拿回这片CD
看回以前在学校大笑的时间。
认识Jonnie的人都懂他的为人
她总是一班朋友里的焦点。
每次都做些好笑的动作应起我们的大笑。

就譬如连载学校一起庆祝一起吃汤圆都拿来玩。

聼過她的歌声了hor？也看过她边唱边跳的舞技。
現在就看看她的演技咯...要做野蛮又会撒娇的女友，真的笑死我了。
看了N次还是觉得很好笑。

看完她演技，就看她的主持天分咯~哈哈
愛玩到一個程度...就連一起吃火锅都玩现场逮捕“金鸡”！！

今天就到這裡咯~

每个人都不要这个事实

2009-05-11T20:32:00.001+08:00

一对准新人去了热浪岛玩，真的值得开心一件事。两个人去热浪岛，就三个人回。为什么多了个人的呢？事实不是多了一个人，而是多了两个人却少了一个人。

都说了是对准新人，也当然是有喜事发生的啦。本来喜事就是让人欢笑的。喜事本来就该把地方布置得红红的。根本就没有想过红事会变白事。

听见在这个爱情故事里的男主角逝世的时候，我真的傻了。曾经是学校里数一数二的帅哥，也当然是班上最好看的男同学，性格很善良又温和，功课又好。

他与班上的其中一位女同学交往了一段时间根本没有人知道，直到受喜帖时才知道原来是这么一回事。欢欢喜喜的准备参加典礼的心情要收起来了，那天我们每个同学都带着悲哀的心情，有的看着他还真的忍不住落泪，男主角的好友由于在外国读书，不能赶回来，也通过电话知道他的消息，他也托我们把电话放在耳边还跟他说了很多很多以前一起在学校时代的欢笑快乐，还问他为什么这么不听女友的话说要在海边游多十分钟。

十分钟真的可以发生很大的改变，十分钟也可以什么改变都没有。可是这十分钟改变了男主角和身边的人很多，还有他自己当中的女主角也不例外。他的离开给与我们每个都有多多少少的打击，曾经一起说过的梦想现在就只有在世的人帮他完成。

我想他的离开除了家人接受不了，女主角也一定最接受不了的那个。一个自己爱的人既然死在自己的面前，又不能做什么。她当时的心情一定比任何人都难受。希望她能早日想开，站起来吧。

一个星期的事

2009-05-07T23:22:00.003+08:00

只是短短的一个星期，既然发生很多很多。。。有开心的，有不愉快的，有懊恼的事。开心的就是在于30号那天，接到电话说Penang的Function, emcee 有事不能到，叫我去。吓死人咩？我才不能主持这么大的一个活动啦。前一个天要engage一个emcee，加上1号那天又是假期，真的几难找到人的。

不过还好，后来我就sub了一个不错的emcee而且又有友谊价钱。也是这个时候本来管理Penang场的的学姐，因KL这里的roadshow和选美跑不了到Penang，所以这样他们叫我去工作，排排节目的rundown，处理下地点的布置，也是我平常做的事啦。。。能去Penang工作而且又在那里玩了当然是件开心的事啦。

工作嘛～难免会受点伤。这个伤呢～就真的叫头破血流。就爬梯子时，它往后跌，那我就也往后倒在地上啦～头没什么，只留了点血，没有想象中的严重。我想我的头一定有铁头功，因为我常撞到头都没什么大不了。不愉快的事该是这件吧～因为老板一直叫我休息。常在饭店，也因为这个原因所以把小说看完啦～

不懂这是福还是祸。既然这场意外迎起了一个傻佬从KL跑到Penang来看伤势。这些傻事只有傻的才会做吧～他又不是医生，来了也没用，这只会增加我的头痛。当时看见他真的吓坏了，想必一定是一些‘红娘’干的好事。在Penang四天，他就陪了我最后的两天。这么明显，是鬼都懂他想怎样啦～事情不出乎我意料。。。既然在今天的晚餐发生。。。

认识我的人都懂，现在真的不是时候改变我现在的生活节奏。因为好不容易才回到轨道上，好不容易找回我的那颗心，一切正常不过的生活。其实我这些想法他该都懂。。

今天过后，我想要engage他跳舞该比较难。为什么这么说？其实他是我做工时认识的一位舞者，他是跳街舞的。我时常有什么活动需要节目客串都会联络他。今日后该怎么办，就交给时间决定吧～因为不想想得太多，因为很快老岑的～～XD

偶然买下的两本书

2009-05-04T00:33:00.007+08:00

想必如果有读网络小说的读者对这位作者，这两本作品该很熟悉。我记得我看他的第一本的作品是《猫空爱情故事》。当时其实是偶然间的买下它。为什么我这么说，因为当时我逛书局是看见我想买的心理学的分析书，可是因书局有做一些推销，买三送一，选了另一本分析报告后也没什么书我可以选了，其他的分析书都大同小异，后来本来是想选一本小说给我的好友，因为她最爱看小说的。谁知让我逛到网络小说区，看见这本《猫空爱情故事》。买这本小说的时候其实没有很有意义的吸引力，因为买下它不是给我的好友看，而是书上的《猫》字。哈哈。。。想必一定很多问号在头上，当时我的宠物是只猫，不过它已离去所以那时候的我对猫字很敏感。而且买下它也是因为包装的问题，它不像其余一般的小说封面一样，由男女主角大大的图片做封面。

说到封面，买下第二本小说也是因为它的封面和主题。因为这本书由咖啡做主题，所以也是买它的原因。买下来后才发现原来我生平买的两本小说就同一个作者。我看完《猫空爱情故事》的时候都没有看作者是谁，更何况是买下的时候，我看书都不大看作者是谁，只要好看就ok，所以都没发觉其实是同一个人。后来才发现原来作者有一定的红哦~！哈哈

如果有耐心又得空没事做的话，不妨读读这两本小说。因为它们其实真的很好看。故事内容还不错，尤其是《六弄咖啡馆》。结局真的出乎我意料。我不晓得其他读者怎么看，可是至少对我来说它值得我去读。有时间的话我会看《六弄咖啡馆》第二遍~

Mummy Birthday @ Chili

2009-04-30T01:10:00.003+08:00

Last Saturday was my mummy b'day...hehe...My mum get a age older again... :( But that day I was very happy, duno y oso...haha... Usually if this kind of gathering I will feel uneasy, especially my sis fiance is here...Dun ask me y, there musta have reason in there... There been quite some years v owis get out n have dinner together with special occasion, like parents b'day, mothers day, fathers day n so on.... Usually I dun like this kindda gathering... But this year my mum's b'day, I dun noe what happen to me... Haha... I can tengah masak like I hanging out with frens... I even go n kacau the waiter n waitress like I owis do... Haha.. But this time in front of my parents... Hahaha... Me so dare~~ Wuhu... From photos, I realize my parents get old alot... Even me!!! My gosh~~ Old like end of 20 instead of beginning of 20... But the cool thing is... If I stand beside of my eldest sis, sure I wont like end of 20~~ Cuz she now lou ngek ngek d~~~hahaha... Hope my parents get a grandson soon... then it's another stage of life for them n my sis... N me too~~~ cuz I'll no more b Jo Jo Jie Jie n will be Aunty Jo Jo... Wahahaha... N I hope my elder sis can get a man soon like my eldest sis do... My mum neva worried us about this, but I do worry my elder sis... She's too tough, too man... She neva tot of a man beside her... Anyway~ I do hope our family photo will have another member soon, BUT not from my side~~!!! LOL

ps: Duno is coincident or else... my dad looks cool~~ haha!! Duno look at what that makes him smile like this~~ lol

干嗲给我的惊喜？

2009-04-27T00:00:00.001+08:00

今天无意中让我发觉一件事就是我干嗲他要把我丢到外国读书！OMG！！我不要！我在这里读不读都已要考虑了，还要我到国外都书？oh holly shit！！我不要啦~为什么要我选择不继续读的话就要到国外读？没错我是对那个国家有不错的印象，可是我不想长期在那里生活啦~就是不要嘛~
我可以选择呆在这里吗？我不想到国外去啦！！救命啊~饶了我吧~我已打算回去读了，在考虑当中嘛~你就让我想想怎样嘛~我会继续读的，可是我更喜欢我对工作的卖命。也许我真的很笨，因为很多人都骂我，‘你要工作，读完书了，做死你！’
哎呀~我就是享受身边的人给我工作的机会嘛~我没说我不要读我的Degree啊~可是比人家慢了点毕业罢了嘛~哎哟~

Delete昨日的烦恼，Select今日的快乐

2009-04-26T18:28:00.005+08:00

迎接新的开始就要把以前的事给Delete掉。。。以前所有留下的，我都Delete掉了，不管是不小心Delete的还是刻意Delete的，我的确统统都Delete了。曾经为你做的一些笨蛋的事全都Delete了。不再有你的影子，如有相遇的时候，我会从新的从不认识你开始。（但最好别有这个机会）
我终于忍心的把所有的事全都放下了。5个月后的我，终于把5个月前的事放下了。Cheers，baby！！

My Kuantan Fly Away D

2009-04-21T18:31:00.006+08:00

I wan go KUANTAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sigh! Becoz of U I cannot go KUANTAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wan Go KUANTAN WORK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Miss cherating so much~!!

Daniel的生日

2009-04-20T20:50:00.006+08:00

昨晚在Tai家因庆祝Daniel的生日，所以就办了个生日派对。。。由于我因有事在身所以晚上才到Tai的家，不过还好来得及切蛋糕仪式~~哈哈！3师徒一起脱衣一起斗大只~~ 不过徒弟还不够师傅斗~！！Lol！！
由这张照片可以很明显看出谁和谁比较好，谁和谁比较熟~Lol！！在这里就像一个大家庭这样。。。非常照顾对方，可是家人偶尔会吵架，一吵就无法收拾，就算说好别把事放在心上可是心里还是有条刺。昨晚，我已尽量把以前的事全都擦掉，做回本来的自己，一事对人，没有私心，没有偏心。我很感谢昨晚在场的每一位，因为有你们才让昨晚的我这么自然。我不知道出席昨晚的派对是否对还是错，也不知道会不会影响我接下来在这里的发展，不过想了一个晚上这个问题，最后还是随着心走还有身边朋友的鼓励。

接下来我有没有缘与他们一起作战就得交给缘分咯~~

糟糕！真的很想说一句＇若要人不知除非己莫为＇

2009-04-20T13:00:00.006+08:00

他的身份既然让现在我圈子里的人都知道了，早知道连一个人都不说我当时发生什么事～不过他们有他们的，既然隐隐约约的猜都会知道他是谁了。我从没说过他的名字，最厉害的是，一猜就中，可是我还是假装一副没事儿的样子，他们既然还100%的确定就是他。好啦~他们都只到是谁啦，现在己找羞辱．．．还给人酸！还给人骂我是sohai！以前的事我真的很不想让它们影响我现在的前进。有没有人可以把以前的事擦掉完全消失在历史间？我已很努力的隐藏你的存在了，如此这么做是因为不想让没必要的原因影响彼此的身份已地位。不过我还是会让一切变成不被翻开的历史簿。

吴君如＜金鸡＞

2009-04-19T15:45:00.008+08:00

昨天朋友给了一部电影我看

看到画面就觉得是喜片...

这部喜我也知道有入围金钟奖

有没获得奖项就忘了

一部来自吴君如的电影《金鸡》

这部戏我完全由开始笑到尾～
可能笑点太低...朋友觉得不好笑的我都笑翻~~

忆莲的不必在乎我是谁

2009-04-19T15:37:00.004+08:00

这首歌自己本身还几喜欢
不过每次有人听我唱的时候
很多人都不是很清楚谁的歌

现在正式跟大家介绍
一首来自林忆莲的演唱
李宗盛的作品
叫作<不必在乎我是谁>

我大姐要结婚了

2009-04-19T13:07:00.003+08:00

我大姐她要结婚了咧~哈哈~！！她终于要结婚了！我开心地是她终于要嫁人了~~！

I Just Wan What I've Now

2009-04-16T16:18:00.004+08:00

Everything started when I call him darling... It's sorry to says that 'darling' this designation I will apply to every1 also... I called my ladies darling, I called my stuff darling, I called my colleague darling... 'Darling' is really meant nth to me, is just a normal designation when Im working... That's all! But I neva expect when this designation split out will cause such a misconception... And now this misconception bring us to another status of us... U both are friend of mine, I very appreciate that, just dun wanna break the connection we all have now... And also not the time for me to build up in this field... I have enuff, or too much to care of... but not now for this... Thanks for caring n loving... N plz~ Dun promise anything, I know u guys will neva accomplished... Dun says forever, there are no forever in my dictionary... Others~I dun even willing to offend...